mood: sentap

hurm.camne nak citer ek.sebenarnya starting 2-3hari lepas dah start rase down giler.
i mean dengan everything la.my life,my study n my everything.
tapi nak cite kat orang cam xpenting plus busy sangat banyak sangat keje kena wat.
tapi bile 2 hari ni dapat balik paper test.i was like jatuh terduduk bile cume 1 angka je.
then fikir2 balik.
for the whole semester which dah dapat balik dalam 6 test paper,2 je lulus.
paham x pe perasaan ini?
rase cam diri sangat bodoh cam langsung xbelajar.
memang saya ngaku saya xcukup lagi berusaha habis2an.
tapi saya dah cube ok.pakse diri study sampai tido pun ala2 je.xmacam saya yang normal la..
which saya yang xcukup tido adalah sangat horrible n terrible.
*sigh*

then test malam tadi pun same.memang bleh dpt 1 angka je lg..T___T
terus balik sangat depressed.
tak tau nak citer kat sape.then text someone.
pastu die call.actually memang xde niat nak kaco die pun since die nak final tadi.
tapi i don't have any other choice or someone else.
so biler saya xleh stop nangis die try cool me down.tapiiii.....
i was like xrase die cam bese since die macam bukan diri die yang selalu cheer me up n give me strength.
so xsengaje tgh nangis2 tertinggi kan nada sebab die senyap.
then die pun cam bengang terus die pun balas dengan nada yang sangat la menghiris hati..
*gosh.ingat balik terus rase nak nangis lagi*
pastu malas nak panjang cite saya suh die pegi group study die.

tapi pastu terus nangis lagi sorang2..T__T
pas few minutes,cuba cool downkan diri then pasang surah2 kat hp.dengar sampai tertido..
bangun kul 12 baru pegi mandi.

so hari ni memang xde mood sangat.plus de la few things jadi rase cam tensen giler dah..
sampai rase nak quit dah.seriously saya xpenah rase down sampai tahap ni..

tapi yang pasal someone tu,saya malas nak pk sangat.ikut hati nak text die jugak.tapi cam xtau nak cakap pe.
bukak gtalk tengok die elok je available.tapi die xtegur pun.
so i am assuming he is hating me right now..T__T
tapi malas nak kaco jugak.still cube assume die on9 wat keje.xtengok gtalk pun.

tapi baru jap ni saje bukak fb die.
and guess what someone tagged him in a album which stated it was taken in _ _ _ _.
i was like what??he went there on that day?really?
then terus sentap giler2..its ok la kalo die pegi pun.hak die.
tapiii...
when it was my time last time,he don't come.even i'm just here in shah alam.not that far pun..
plus that time we were more than friend.
*sigh*

xpela kan.maybe its right i'm better off from your life kot.
its ok.i'm loosing everyone pun right now..
just in case you read this,don't contact me.cause i dont want to contact u for a while which it won't be any problem to you.i know it.bye..

p/s: sorry sangat sedih la sem ni.sangat2..jangan amek peduli pun.cam bese la kan.no one bother pun..