congrats...!!

ok..i know its totally a month late wish..

its for my fren raihan.

well.back on those days we thought she's juz kidding about the engagement thing..

but it turn out its true...T_T

haish dear..if only i know its true,i should have come that day..so sorry..

juz wanna wish u all da best in life always.n i hope both of u will be happy together till the end of life...:)

congrats again..:) nnt kenduri kawen xjemput siap la ko raan..hehe..

ok..enough..sye suda jeles..haha..i'm going crazy again..:p

IMY

ok.dr ritu cm bengong2 alm g subscribe broadband kt hp.then on9 la kt hp smpi skt2 jari menaip..

shut...!!

pki cable smbg kt mr lappy kn sng.haish..xpndi m'gunakn kemudahn btul..

itu pn t'pk dh kul 9lbh td.pdhal subscribe td pg..T_T

ok.ttp cte tu..

well cuti ni mmg xde nk wat pape pn.lepak tgk movie jek.

itu pn lps b'ssh pyh tgu laptop akk ipar n download software nk play movie.

pdhal.....dlm external lalink dh ade lah bertuah...!!

isk3...nangis btul..kalo x msti skrg dh series pe sye tgk...haishh...tu la bnde dh de xreti gne.pdn ngan mke sndri..

eh3...mke sy mmg pdn..agagagagaa....

stop..! merepek lg..

tjuk ats tu..agk2 tuju kt sape lah eh??

adoih..sape lg..my lalink lo..

xkn la tetbe nk IMY kt laki org..upppss...xde2..hehe

x2..btul sy setia kt lalink sorg jek..xtpu...:)

sbb tu la rndoo kt kamu ni..huu...

gediks je lbh..bru xjmpe 3 minggu.eh..xsmpi 3minggu lg la..pe la..xpndi kire btul..

err...nape tetbe ayt jd cm bkn dri sy ni?hoho...msti sbb bru pas bce blog sorg ni..ala yg sye de ckp dlu duk bce blog die pas hbs final b'jam2 tu..(eh..ade kn bgtau ritu?ke xde??sy pelupe meh..:p)

sape nak leh klik sni..

doc yg cun okeh..i like..bkn terer jd doc je.bab2 kecntkn pn..plus she become part time model also...(tetbe promote lak..:p )

ok2.bg sye die ni best coz xcmpr aktvti die yg b'bagai ngan tgs sbgi doc..respect hbs meh..eh3..die xkje lg la.bru hbs stdy dr jogja..haish..bce sndri la kt blog die..*sy pemalas*

ok..dh xtau nk tls pe.tgk la jap2 lg kalo rjn..ngee...mau smbg tgk movie..:)

peace contest..adeh..

adoih..juju ni tagged sye pule..
hmm..so skrg mmg xde pic meh..
ltk pic ngan ben kang bru tau.haha..
tp xleh coz pic tu xcntk..plus ben xwat peace..hohooh.hmm..tgh m'cri pic lg..
sbb on9 kt laptop akk ipar so cr gmbr di fb sje lah..

errr...
mne 1 nk ltk ni.sume gmbr xcntk meh..

lps dh puas klik sne sni..de la 2 gmbr yg AGAK OK ye..haish...
last2 plh pic ni...
reason??

sbb pic ni lalink yg amek.haha..xde motif btul..

mmg mke sgt burox...=_= jgn gelak..!!

ok dah..

mls nk ckp lbh2..

err..tagged kwn ye..

1. miera

2. sK

3. daniela kacima

4. syana

yg num 2 n 3 tu xtau la diorg akn bce ke x entry ni..ok lah..tu je..

n owh..tarikh tutup 1st january 2011..sila2 sape2 nk masuk..

p/s:- juju,nnt aku tuntut hadiah dr ko sbb tagged aku..hahaha..lme dh xwat tag2 ni.hrp maaf..+_+

counting

first of all congrats to all my fren yg dpt dL tuk ritu..
n ye,sy agk frust xdpt cm mrka..
hmm.de la hkmhnye kot..redha sje..

ok then skrg ssh nk on9 dh..mau tgu next sem n kalo de rzki nk amek bb..
eyh..bkn blacberry ye.
broadband..
kalo de rzki la.hoho..
n pastu nk beli webcam..:)
mau video call ngan lalink..:D
ehh..bkn kamu ke jnj nk bg sye webcam dlu..haha.:p

erm..neway byk bnde jd..
even most of the times sye sdh tp bile happy sekli tu,sy sgt b'sykr..;)
n of coz semuanya krna kamu lalink..tq 4 everything..:)

err..tetbe lpe pe nk taip..
owh..lesen,hold dlu sbb...sbb...
xde sbb..haha..sy nk amek kt metro jgk kot..so tgu next sem
errkk..smpt ke x eh..insyaaAllah..
baek amek seblm duit melayang ntah ke mne..
hmm..byk list dh ni..haha..mmg sye seorg yg boros...:p

ok..see ya l8r..;)

quick update

semlm dgr cte dr kwn result k0lej dh kuar.sadly kami t'psh dr clasmate yg laen.adeh.h0pefully xbtl la.hrp2 update bru kami dpt dkt2 lg.huhu
hr ni dpt result exam plak..alhamdulillah..even xdpt capai target sbnr pn kn.tp stil ok la..

Well,back few days ago.its my c0nvo day..1st dec..ya we enj0yed the day so much even hjn lbt kn time nk blik which make me lo0se the chance 2 meet my lalink.huhu.bt its ok la..c0z da next day we did meet 4 a while.ya i meant it..juz an h0ur.then we'll n0t meet 4 an0ther 8m0nths..T_T..xpe2.nsb leh 3g lg..hehe..syg kamu sgt2..:)

N owh.cuti ni hrus lh smbg lesen juge.ad0ih.mlsnye s0rg2.tp kne la jgk kn.kang ngamuk lak my family.huhu..next week nk kne setel registrati0n sume dh.h0pefully kali ni xslh wat plhn lg.n i'm str0ng en0ugh 2 go thr0ugh everythg al0ne.adeh,bnci p'kataan al0ne itu..

Lastly,xlrt nk taip dh.tgn dh lenguh gle ni.nk wat cmne.hp cikai jek kn.huhu..c ya next time..
Owh,i do miss him.a l0ts.jge dri lek l0k ya mi am0ur..:)

unplanned~~

gwahhh...back to shah alam already...

tomorrow got reherseal for convo..

early in the morning..

ok..everyday have to get up early..eh...x2..pg td pegi tdo blik..:p



ok..skrg menumpang ehsan mereka2 sje..huhu..terima kaseh yg xt'hingga kpde mrka sume di rumah ini..


then selasa kuar..mau cri kasut...

sumenye unplanned.

byknye bnde dh lari.eh..mne de lari..lantak la..:p

oklah..mau tdo..bye2..

p/s:- lalink..gud luck exam..:) wish we can meet before ur flight..

selamat hari raya aidiladha

selamat hari raya aidiladha tuk semua..



skrg still kt pekan.my beloved hometown..(beloved ke?:p)



ok2 skrg mood tgh serabut..xbrp nk de mood..

pening ngan perkara2 yg xbrp nk pntg..*sigh*

kne jge hati semua.hati sendiri??

fine..dh la..

mls mau gdh2..

let it be..i wanna my life back..:



ape la yg bleh wat sye happy blik skrg ni eh?

entah..

sume pn same jek kot...

i need ur love back.

ntah nape rse i'm loosing u.
hopefully its not true..

k r..next time update..bye2..
take care everyone..

end of semester 3

yeay...!!

akhrnye dh hbs semester 3 ni dgn officially nye semlm..:D

well,semlm kami de prgm nutrition kt kg miku pabai,rembau..

haa..kalo cri kt google map,dpt unknown road..hehe..

kg ni ok la.org2 die sporting coz ktorg wat prgm pn simple2 je.jnji diorg happy n ktorg pn enjoy gak..

bg sye yg xpnh join event2 begini,sye rse best la jgk..

even last2 pdn mke sndri skt sensorg kt situ..oppss....kantoi plak..:p

hehe..xdela skt pe pn juz a bit gastric sbb xmkn..ngee...sebuk suh org mkn tp dri sndri xde selera smpi kne gastric..mmg gilos..



ok2..ttup cte tu.

disebbkn sye pye hp camera cm xsudi je nk bg pic yg cntk,so sye xtgkp gmbr la..huu..nnt2lh gmbr ktfb.tgu org2 tagged.

owh.ASB3F,sile tagged sye..!! hahaha..:p

ok.then pas hbs prgm blik SA ngan kple denyut2.trus tdo smpi dkt maghrib..hoho...



bgn2 g mndi,siap2 then kuar lg..:D

hehe..for my first time kuar mlm kt shah alam..i mean kuar smpi lbh kul 11 la..

grk dr sni kul 7.40pm cmtu.then tgu sume kmpl bru g Alam sentral..

oh3..i like tetbe sume jd minah rempit.ngeh3..(err..sye xbwk la..mntk ampn nk bwk...)

ktorg g tgk separuh akhr muzik2..

hohoho..

ske3 tgk stacy..*tetbe*

n dpt gmbr ngan Cat...die sgt baek..:D



skrg tgh kms2 brg..

owh3..mmg mcm pelarian la rini nk g KLCC..wuuu...thn jela jap g..>_<



err...sye mau drive juge tapiii..

skrg pn dh sgt ngntuk....dan dan...msti jam.hurmm..xde hrpn jek nk drive..huhuu...

tgk lh..ok lah.smpi sni je entry.ntah la ble dpt on9 lg..*sigh*

eh2..kalo kakak ade,broadband ade..ade chance lg..ngee...:p

n abg blik weekend ni..haa.mntk2 die bwk blik laptop n broadband...bwk lah blik plz.....

haha..ok.sewel suda..



daa dii duu...

eh..selamat hari raye aidiladha sume..





p/s:- lalink,sye rndoo kt kamu..adeh.ngade2 plak kn..:p nk jmpe kamoo before kamoo pegi sne..

komen plz~~

ok..blog ni dh leh komen blik..ngee..
mmg sewel rse ngan bnde2 ni.
tula,laen kli dh elok2 bleh komen jgn ngade2 nk ubah sane sini..
neway,thx my lalink..:)
for ur time dlm usaha m'jayakn m'betulkn blog ini..tq2..hehee..
syg kamoo sgt2...

i'm waiting

these past few days were my hard days..totally ok..
well after think about it all the night long until my brain totally exhausted.
n i almost get crazy last nite...(well,only peoples here know my condition last nite.sorry gurlz..)
until i can't pack my things coz my mind were somewhere else.
i loose my appetite..
till this moment.
i'm so tired...

so right now,i really want u to know.
its not that i dun trust u.u should always know i trust u since we're in school..
more than i trust others.
more than i trust myself...
but when u tell me about that,i was too shock with the fact.
its not that i can't accept it.
i can n i will dear.for you,im willing to accept everything.

maybe i dun know how to show how much i love u.
n ya i know it hard for me to praise u or anything..
but dun u know.i don't do that because i never do them for anyone..
n for u..seriously i never loved anyone else the way i love u.
i know it may be hard for u to see it but its true i love u so much.
BUT..
if u only can accept me as besfren,then i gonna have to accept it.
by hook or by crook.
coz i can't force u to love me..
so right now,i'm sorry coz i did say lots of wrong things to u.
for that,i'm deeply apologise to u..

i'll wait for ur answer.
in the mean time,plz do not switch off ur hp or your gtalk..
coz i'll keep being like before till u give me the answer..
n owh..i'm going back to my sister's house today.
so will be back here for a while tomorrow.
n gonna back to pahang on tuesday.

lalink,i'll texting u from time to time..its ok if u dun want to reply.
but plz3..do take care of urself well..
coz i dun want anything bad happen to u...

i'm out of my mind these past two days.so here,i would like to tell u that no matter what ur decision is,i'm gonna accept it.n as always,i'll always here for u.waiting for u n i promise we'll go through everything together.but as always,that is only u want me to be by side.if otherwise,i gonna have to understand it n of course with explaination..ok lalink?

p/s: u know what,i always love to hear ur explaination..always my lalink..:)

11/11

nice date right?
my final end today.
ya but didn't feel happy coz can't answer my paper..T_T

juz hoping i won't fail this paper..
ceeh...its only 35% lol.
so hoping i'll get at least B..
err..yg pntg bkn C lah..haishh..

neway.life must go on right..
so yup.i'm living with all those things.
maybe till the end...
end of my life.
craps..!! :p

so reminder for myself:- dun love someonewith all ur heart.coz in the end u'll cry badly juz to feel the peace again... ok jannah??

p/s:-tetbe jd emo.xde la emo.juz btul la pe kate hati ni dr dlu..my instinct never lie to me.its juz that..hmm..i'm gonna need some time to heal..healing process.adeh..dun like lorh.
n owh...i really fed up with my template nih.dun know how to appear the comment side.already allowed n everything.n everything is fine with me old blog.but this one,really dun know how..ok so no more private blog.pnt dh nk edit2..haishhh..

out of my life girl

having my calculus examination today.hoho..
n as expected i can't answered them..LOL..
even the simplest question i leave without answer.
silly me..!!>_<

ok.thats not the issue now.
the issue now,i really2 wanna say this right to her face.
OUT OF MY LIFE.i mean.OUR LIFE..
haha..i know its a bit.nope.its totally too much when i say OUR.
but plz lah..
can't u see we are together now?
so girl,STOP texting or calling my lalink like that.
u should know the limit.
dun make me see u or call u.
n ya.u dun know how crazy i can be ok..
dun make me do something crazy or u'll regret it..

huh?
i may sound like crazy girl.
but i can't stand the way u text him like that.
even me never say such things to him.
ya3..i know u had lots of good times with him before.
but it in the PAST...
now,i dun care.
coz we're together now.
so stop3 all the craps or i'll make u stop with tears..
dun let the devil inside me do my actions..lalalallaa...>:-P

ok.i know u can't read this.or maybe u did take my link from his blog before2 this.
so if u read this,stop it girl.
dun make me post this to fb.

k daa..
wanna take my bath.
anyway,thx lalink 4 da day...:)
n sorry coz i got emotional bout her today..i juz really can't stand on it.

p/s:-lalink,dun worry.i won't do anything with her pic.i juz hate it when u r the one who keep it..:p

night2

mlm ni ktorg tgk movie kt laptop..
cte pe?
nightmare at the elm street..
ok.i like the movie.
but i hate other things happen before,while n after we watch this movie..

ok.tgk cte ni kt bilik sye..(tp k.erah g stdy kt bilik as)
so de 4 org jela.mle2 nk tgk kt laptop k.sue.psg cd.
then bru start psg cd lmpu dh ttup.
tp sbb me n my roomate lpr,nk wat maggi.dlm glp tuh nk tuang air dlm bks.tp xnmpk sgt.
so what happen?
tercurah ats tgn sndri.greatss giler..sbb air bru je mendidih kn.hambik ko.
pedih gle kot.pas ltk ubt gg kt tgn,smbg tgk movie.

then tgh syok2 lyn cte ni..
dh tgk half an hour 2, sekli cd rosak lak.adusss..
tkr tgk kt laptop as which xpki cd tp xde subtitle..
fine.lyn jela.jnj phm la jgk kn..

then hbs tgk movie.dh happy2..
sekali angkt air dlm plastik t'tmph plak kt tepi loker..!!
OMG...
jd cinderella la ngan tgn sebelah melecur ni kn..sob3...sadis tul..

wuuwuuuu..dh la lmpu koridor dh 2hari xhdp..
mean lampu toilet sekli..dushh..t'baek la weh mlm ni..
T_T
skrg tgh menaip ngan tgn yg still b'colgate ni..haha..biru la plak tgn sndri kn...
comot btul rse dri sndri skrg.
nk btulkn rmbt pn ssh dh..haishh..redha je dh..

so hri ni pn dh bzr lg.
esok,nk kne stdy jgk..huk3..
kalo x,pe cte la final nnt kn..mau nangis guling2 dlm tu kalo xdpt jwb seyh..

ok dh..smpi sni je..
eyh..x2..td smpt belek2 folder gmbr my lalink dlm laptop.
bru perasan 1 bnde.gmbr yg sy duk ngadap hr2,yg kamoo pki bju wrne biru tua tu,sy yg bg bju tu kn?
gile pelupe weh..pastu check2 gmbr laen.rse btul la kot..
recall2 blik..yup2..
so far de 5 bju kn sy bg..haha..
nnt2 i'll buy u another 1.the pink 1..!!
giler lme cr xjmpe yg cntk lg.nnt dh jmpe,i'll gve it 2 u k dear?:)

ok.ni btul2 dh..ssh tul menaip ngan tgn cmni.
k.gudnite2 every1..:)
dun fall asleep or HE will come to kill you..!!hahaha..ok.suda gler

organic

1 more done..
hmm.but unfortunately i fall sick again today..
adoih...
can't think properly..
fine..
its done.so wanna try my best for next paper..

hmm.its calculus time.
ya3..i'm not in the mood actually..
*sigh*
hopefully my brain can work properly..
duuhhh..
guess have to struggle alone..hmm..dun like

out of mood

fine3..
for u its nothing.but for me yup its everything..
*sigh*
i hate this feeling ok.
especially when i can't focus on my stdy.

hmm.so what else to say?
juz let it be coz its done already..
u said i'm too sensitive.
ya.thats me.
still can't understand me eh?
if that thing doesn't happen right in front of my eyes,it should be fine.
but its totally in front of my eyes ok.
so plz dun do it again.
coz it'll hurt me badly..

*singing i don't wanna know song*

ok..
past is past..
but still it gonna hurt me no matter what.
hmm.i tried my best to get rid of this feeling.
unfortunately i can't.
*sigh*

lots more to go..
chaiyuk2 jannah..
n u too my lalink..

30th oct

well,i'm back...:D
back from where??hehe..
from perak..

yup3..that is another crazy thing i done recently..
but after,totally not regretting it.
ya loh..y sud i regret when i get chance to spend with my lalink..^_^

lots of things happen..
n ya i got my swing mood there..
dun ask me y..
there's only 1 thing i really cannot accept last nite..
can't n wouldn't say it here..lallalaa...
whatever it is,thx my lalink..n thx 4 those who joined last nite.
u guys so happening....:D
n owh..special thx 2 ayien n kak liya for let me stay in ur room..ngeee..
tq..:)


ok..now lets rest for a while n start studying for the next paper..
lol..when it is??
this coming wednesday...!!
see how crazy i am?still can go there n enjoyed like i already finish my paper?hohoo
its all because my lalink..
dun want to regret if i can't meet u before u start ur intern..:)

Parachute...^_^

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand

I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned

I won't tell anybody

Won't tell anybody

They want to push me down

They want to see you fall

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around

I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound

Won't tell anybody

Won't tell anybody

They want to see us fall

They want to see us fall

I don't need a parachute

Baby, if I've got you

Baby, if I've got you

I don't need a parachute

You're gonna catch me

You're gonna catch if I fall

Down, down, down

I don't need a parachute

Baby, if I've got you

Baby, if I've got you

I don't need a parachute

You're gonna catch me

You're gonna catch if I fall

Down, down, down

Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late night and

You are your own worst enemy

You'll never win the fight

Just hold onto me

I'll hold onto you

It's you and me up against the world

It's you and me

I won't fall out of love

I won't fall out of,

I won't fall out of love

I won't fall out of,

I won't fall out of love

I won't fall out of,

I won't fall out of love

I'll fall into you

3rd song for my lalink..:)

bad week

hmm..
knpe sye ltak tajuk begitu?
sbb mmg bad week pn..haishh
starting last week..xjd jmpe.ok xpe..sbb mmg hati dh t'detik xjd nk jmpe..
then few days dpt email,permohonan xberjaya.ok xpe..
redha je sbb tau mmg dri xlayak pn..
then dpt tau minggu ni pn xdpt jmpe..ok xpe la jgk.
mmg xberapa nk m'hrp pn..tkut keciwa lg..

pastu mlm td xsht.
tensen gle byk xhbs stdy lg sume..
pg td plak bgn2 still xok..haishh...xlrt gle nk bce note.
rse nk nangis.tp stil leh thn..
tgh tdo time pg,dpt msj abg.
promo tmnet dh hbs.
so bzr je la pnt2 ritu g sne sni kn amek cop sume.
fineee..xde rezeki nk wat cmne.

pastu dh tensen2 sume stdy.
dpt call ckp kamoo hbs paper 1hb 12..
omg gle2 la kn..
yg ni mmg wat rse sdh thp nk gle..
haishh..bertimpa-timpa sume dtg..
smpi xtau nk ckp pe dh..
tgh cbe pujuk hati spye redha je..
tapiiiii....
bile pk dr 8 bulan b'tkr jd 9bulan mmg la sgt2 sedih ok..
sgt2..
smpi dh xtau nk pujuk hati ni cmne...T_T

time taip ni pn tgh rse sgt sdh lg..
tapi dh xleh wat pape..sye redha je la dlu ngan sume ni..sob3...
dh la beb pn xdtg konvo nnt..
so sorg2 je la..:((
gile sadis ble pk blik..
xckup lg kot time sekolah dlu sorg2..
smpi time mjls doa restu spm pn sorg2..
ni konvo dip pn same..
hmmm..guess i have to accept the fact.again..
so nnt time konvo,kwn2 jgn pelik ye kalo tetbe sy nangis..

ok..dh..
xmau pk lg wat mse ni..
mlm ni nk rest.b4 start stdy organic.tp rsenye nk stdy calculus dlu kot.
again...sorg2 jgk...finee...terima je lah..

tensen

haish...
time2 tgh final ni la nk dtg demam la pe la...
adoih...dh la sok paper yg menguji thp kesbrn..
huh...12 bab kot..mau muntah nk hfl sume..
time dip dlu 10 je pn dh ckup seksa.ni degree lg byk plak.haishhh..T_T

so dgn bdn xsht..
nk mnth lg..kple dh b'denyut,ntah pe la jd ngan exam esok..
oh..x..rini coz skrg dh kul 3 pgi pn..
tgl lg few more hours je nk exam..
hmm..de lg 4 chapter xsnth lgsg..
n few chapters yg xhfl lg juz bce sket2 ptg td..
ok..dh..sila stdy ye jannah..


p/s:- terase nk blik umah ble xsht cmni..nk2 ble sume org xpdli sama sye..
hope pg sok sht dh...aminnn....

xde mood

ok..xmau menaip dlm english lg sebab awk dh ckp cmtu...
finee....silap..baekkkk.....
sy xpndi mne.sbb tu english beterabur...terimaa kasihhhh...

sgt down ok..
sgt2..dr mlm td sejak dpt msj tu..
nak stdy..urff..belajar pn xde mood..argghh..sshnye..

dh la.mls nk pk perkataan yg btul..
mne2 pn stil slh gak..>_<

ok..about my previous post..
bkn nk mempertikaikn knp awk plh sye.
juz nk sy sdr dri sye xmemenuhi ciri2 yg awk ckp pn.
so kemungkinn utk sy jd bkn 'org nye' adlh sgt tggi ok...
sgt tinggi..
so sy kne sdrkn dri sndri.
sblm...
sblm nnt t'jge dr mimpi yg sgt pnjg.mimpi sorg2..pdhal awk xpk cmtu pn kot..
entah...

juz kt sni nk ckp sy sdr dri lg.even ble ckp ngan awk sy mmg mcm xsdr dri.mntk mcm2..mcmlh awk sy pye sorg kn..
awk jgk yg ckp awk de lg 814 org awek laen..
ya..xpe..sbb sy pn ckp kalo awk brni wat,sye pn leh cr lg 900 org pakwe laen...=_=

walau apepn..sy ttp syg awk.
even mybe pas bce ni awk bnci sy ke..
*sigh*
ntah la..things become complicated..
sgt2 kot..
or maybe bg sy je..bg awk xkot.
sbb 8bln yg bg sy adlh sgt pnjg tu pn awk ckp kjp je..

hmm..papepn,sila jg dri awk elok2 sbb sy xleh nk tgk awk skrg..
jgn lpe mkn n tidur..
xmau awk skt.
nnt sy ssh ht lg..
skrg dh ckup ssh ht pn..

ok..end of post.
nnt2 sy merepek lg ye..

sekian,
post merepek dr cik emogirlz..

tell me

criterias for a girl
1. intelligent
-obviously i'm at average.

2. beautiful
-i'm know myself.i'm totally not...

3. not wearing spectacles
-obviously i'm wearing it all da time..>_<

4. good at cook
-i'm totally bad in this..or u can say worse..!!

5. not under petronas scholar
-this is the only one i fulfilled.

so tell me..how can i be that person if i only fulfill only 1 from 5 criterias??
*sigh*
i know myself.
maybe i'm not the person for you...n it hurt me a lots....

coz i really can't loose u no matter what.. guessed i have to remind myself about the fact over n over again...




*i'm typing with swallowed eyes coz the tears dun stop for almost half an hour.it breaks my heart so much...above all,i'm so sorry for making things become difficult for u.....*

final

woot3..

what day is today??

MONDAY..!!

what date is today??

25th october 2010..!!



so officially the final exam for UiTM's students begin today.

all da best for each n everyone of you...

wish this semester everyone will do their very best

y?

to achieve the best lol..what else??hehee



ok.lots more exercises to go today.but now i'm so sleepy..GTG..

keep fighting everyone..!!

n owh dun forget to take care of your health too..:)





*totally dun have mood to take this final exam.."sigh"*



p/s:-bad dreams..haishh..it make me dizzy.sorry lalink for calling that late..dun know how to calm my heart at the moment..haishhh....

Two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life and I thought

"Hey, you know, this could be something"

'Cause everything you do and words you say

You know that it all takes my breath away

And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true

That I can't live without you

And maybe two is better than one

But there's so much time

To figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face

The way you roll your eyes

The way you taste

You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away

I think of you and everything's okay

I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true

That I can't live without you

And maybe two is better than one

But there's so much time

To figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true

That I can't live without you

Maybe two is better than one

But there's so much time

To figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking

I can't live without you

'Cause, baby, two is better than one

But there's so much time

To figure out the rest of my life

But I'll figure it out

When all is said and done

Two is better than one

Two is better than one

Second song for you my lalink..^_^

ti amo troppo..:)

wee...
seriously u're my everything lalink..:)

oh3..lack of idea to type here coz i'm so happy..
above all,thx a lots for the time..
n everything lalink..

well..
its totally weird but guess i'm getting used to it. coz i'll always say
ti amo troppo..:))

*ok stop.mari stdy..sye suda angau sama kamoo..:p haha..*

My life would s**k without you

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Baby I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can't let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

p/s:- specially dedicated to my lalink.....*abaikn rangkap 1st.laen2 sume dedicated to u*

sorry

i wish u read this.
sooner or later...
right now.
i'm deeply apologise to u my lalink..
hope u'll contact me later coz i need u.

i'm so sorry for everything i have done to u..
so sorry..
dun know how to get u back..
wish...
things will back like before.
haish...


reminder for myself:- next time,dun be too emosional.see what happen???sorry my lalink....:(

missing u a lots...

adeh...hate myself for being like this..

well,i should have knew it that he's going to be very busy

but still i keep on asking too much from him..*sigh*

silly me..sorry my lalink..didn't mean it.

now,my heart control my mind.not the other way around.so its going to be a very difficult thing for u..n for myself also...:

ok..lets get used to it.

like i promise to u.

i will

but

i'm gonna need lots of time to do it..

especially when i'm having too much pressure to finish my assignments n tests..

n i dun have u to story everything like before...:(

p/s:- emo2 girl is always in me..:p

busy weeks ahead..T_T

ok..
5tests
2presentations
4lab reports
assignments...

urff..
then its final exam..!!
wahhh....i'm totally getting crazy here..:((
lalink..
help me..........

*adeh..sorry..ngade lbh2 lak skrg..*

lets do works..!!
focus plz..

yes,i do..:D

:)) :)) :)

to my lalink...
thx 4 making me happy..:D

well..its juz being official last nite.
or didn't it count yet eh?:p
*kidding*

well..today i had a very bad test with stomachache..
i dun know how's the result will be..so juz let it be..

to my beb..
sorry for not telling u by call last nite..
i'll call u later k...

ok..now its time for class..
see ya another few more hours...:p

7th 0ct 2010....22.40++...:)
tq lalink..n sorry for being too sensitive...dun run from me..!!hahaha..

what should i do??

OMG....
i really dun know what to do now..:((
*sigh*
*sigh*

it really hard now..
above all..i juz want u to know i really2 dun wan to loose u in my life
coz u r my strength each time i fall.
u always there for me.
cheer me up.
help me in every single thing...
but...
there's things we need to clarify first..
hope u can understand it later..

n if only u can accept it,then i'll absolutely say yes without doubt at all...
but for this moment..i dun have that strength to tell u yet..
give me a lil bit time..
n i hope u won't leave me coz i'm dead without u.
like i told u too many times before.
i really can;t imagine life without u....

n if u can't accept it..all i'm begging u is,don't leave me....:((
i also can understand if u can't accept it coz i know u.
but plz.if u hate me,dun be too long....coz i always need u...always...

what if

what if....

for more than 4 years people around u saying the same thing to u over n over again

which u did denied it each time..

its not that u want to run away from the statement or u r trying to make any differences from others.

but its true what u r deniying...

until..

untill..



one day.u r so scared if it might come true coz peoples say,words is our pray..

so all theses words for this 4 years,are they prayer??

n is Allah r going to granted it??

goshhh...

i dun wan it to happen..

i know people say its not a wrong thing instead it a good thing for me.

BUT...

i can't bear the consequences if it really happen and then failed.

not now.not then



only i know it..

coz it means everything to me..

all this while i juz ignore it coz i thought it won't n NEVER happen.even a bit.

but now i doubt it..

a lot...*sigh*



so what to do??

lately it makes me wonder a lot.n i hate this feeling.misery~~

Black list

INFO
Produk disenarai hitam Kementerian Kesihatan

Produk pelangsing badan berdaftar ada sibutramine:
-Kintop
-Body Beaus
-BMI-9 Xylimming Capsule
-Senna Plus Capsule

Produk tidak berdaftar mengandungi sibutramine:
-Lami

Produk berasaskan makanan mengandungi sibutramine:
-Obexlim
-Slimax Coffee
-Beaute Fit Body Contour
-Body Trimz

Produk tradisional berdaftar yang mengandungi steroid:
-357 Nasal Spray

Produk tradisional tak berdaftar mengandungi steroid:
-Makjun Taufiq Dua Istimewa
-Majun Dua Istimewa
-Ginseng Jin Fui Wan
-Maajun Tenaga Herba Ubi Jaga
-Jamu Tradisional Jaya Asli (Anti Asam Urat)
-Red Brand Ginseng Plus Zheng Fei Capsule
-Ren Sem Tu Chon Chin Kuo Pill
-Makjun Syafiq 3 Istimewa
-Reepo

Produk berasas makanan yang mengandungi steroid:
-Air Ikan Haruan

Produk kosmetik yang mengandungi hydroquinone dan tretinoin atau salah satu:
-Eriesya Spa Beauty Cream
-Atika Beauty Renewal Cream
-Temulawak Whitening Pearl Cream Papaya
-Ratna Sari Whitening Night Cream
-Tia Amelia Krim Jeragat
-Chantique Whitening Night Cream
-RZAC White Pearl Cream
-Nuriz Day and Night Cream
-Elite Rias Er Cream
-R&Z Whitening Night Cream
-Beauty Line Beautitude Multipurpose Cream
-Pigmentation Recovery Complex
-Zara Rejuvenation Cream
-Natasya Krim Herba Gold
-De Putih Night Cream

Produk tradisional berdaftar ada antihistamine
-Eng Leong Cordyceps Chuanbei Plus Cough Pill

Produk tidak berdaftar mengandungi antihistamine
-Pil Zhen Zhu Bai Fong Wan
-Qian Tong Dan
-Raja Ubat Resdung
-Coral Plus UA 350MG

__________________
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Produk seperti tersenarai di bawah tidak lagi dibenarkan diimport/ dikilang/ diedar/ dijual di negara ini dan Pihak Berkuasa telah mengarahkan supaya semua stok produk berkenaan di keluarkan dari pasaran.

Tahun 2010

	Nama produk
	NV Toner Treatment No 1
	NV Toner Treatment No 2
	Zara Rejuvenation Cream
	Beauty Line Beautitude Multi-Purpose Cream
	Pigmentation Recovery Complex

 

Tahun 2009

	Nama produk
	Felisa Gentle Peeling Solution
	Krim Malam Rahsia Rimba
	Biocosmet Whitening Essence Cream
	~H2O+ Waterwhite Brightening Night Cream
	Magixpress Lightening Plus
	A.Vant Cream
	Eriesya Spa Beauty Cream
	Natasya Krim Herba
	Temulawak Whitening Pearl Cream Papaya
	Ratna Sari Whitening Night Cream
	ATIKA BEAUTY Renewal Night Cream
	Chantique - Whitening Night Cream

 

Tahun 2008

	Nama produk
	Khazanah White Pembersih Wajah
	Gloskin Krim Malam & Siang
	Reena's Astringen Lanjutan
	Skin Desires Deep Whitening Cleansing Milk
	EETYE Whitening Cream
	O'Lynn Skin Lightening Cream

Senarai ini dikemaskini pada April 2010

ada gak list product tradisional yg kene tarik blk mcm list kt bawah ni:

Tahun 2009

	Nama produk
	Phyto-Hape
	Phyto Shape
	Etumax Eurycoma Active Plus
	Loong Choo Brand Reh Bih Ho Herbal Tea
	Jinglida
	Bodybeaus
	Eng Luan Codyceps, Chuanbei Plus Cough Pill 3.5gm
	Senna Plus Capsule 400mg

Tahun 2008

	Nama produk
	Ju Purt Jen Chin Yen (Cap Fuu Cheng)
	Bionex
	Edoly Kapsul
	Pronoton
	Venergy capsule 300mg
	ML Spring Returns
	ML Viraken capsule
	Tribulus Plus capsule 400mg
	Epimedi Plus capsule 400mg
	Primalex
	Spartan
	Xiao Tang Ling
	Xanthium plus
	Slimway Herbs

Senarai ini dikemaskini pada Oktober 2009

p/s:-xbce hbs lg..sje2 post.if any mistake on the list or any update,let me know..:) .GTG..lots of works to do..

days to count~~

its 27th sept already..

means 3more weeks to go with full of tests,presentations,assignments n of course lab reports..!!

*sigh*

ok..

this week having 3 tests with one quiz..

but then suddenly feeling not well..T_T

sore throat,body's temp rise n suddenly diarrhea today...

adoih..

plz..dun wanna to fall sick untill end of this sem.

n of course not on my convo day..:D

when is the day?its on 1st december 2010..:)

but then i really dun know my family are going to come or not...hmm..i think they can't come as its on wednesday..its ok..but really hope my beb will come..:p

ok..

next story..

recently having camwhore but can't post any of them.why?

its all taken while free hair..:p y?coz i got new hair..so its kindda excited..:D

ok.fine.i'm not having beautiful hair.

so its has to be really lucky or else i might be 'on off' like others..:p

next story..

suddenly he upload pics on fb after long time..n guess what he's not in malaysia..

oh jannah.plz stop being like this..really hope i can forget him quickly..

those memories..hmmm

i know the only way to forget him is falling in love with someone else..

BUT..no way..i'm not going to let my heart hurted again..

well..lets time decide..:)

for this time being...juz let me love all my frens n my besties only...:)

3.30am 10th sept 2010

night of eid.purposely wear my mum's scarf..:p my face become funny..so dun know whether i'm going to change into this or not..hahha..

p/s: 3more days to go n i think i'm facing lots of tests already....keep being strong..:)

after so long

already back to sentul..
cehh..not back to pahang yet.hmm..
i really hope i'll back to pahang this eid..REALLY3..
coz i want to meet my beb n others..
my mum,plz say yes.huk3..
i'm a bit worried when i read my sister's comment on fb today..
'xsure blik ke x.sbb mak mcm nk stay KL.so tmn die kot'

she's commenting with her fren.then i was like,erkkkk...so it wasn't confirmed yet after all..
haishh..i was already planned a lots of things..confirming with them that i'm back for this eid.,but suddenly it became like this..*sigh* juz hoping my mum will agree to back to pekan..plz mum..dun do this to me..:(

ok..now back to title..
well..today i'm so tired carrying my bags from college to class then to sentul..haaha..i was like 'pelarian' n people keep staring at me coz no one bring 'beg blik kg' to class except me..:P
even my lecturer noticed me n laugh a bit..haha..sorry madam coz i came to ur class like that today...
then when reach home i slept in front of tV till 1850..goshh..
after breaking fast,i sleep till 2300++..uppss....
then thats the reason i'm still up to this moments..
adeh..even i already have plan to go out tomorrow but i dun sleep yet.huhu..
hopefully i won't be bad mood tomorrow...hopefully lah..
its first time meet n dun even tell my bestie yet about it..adehh..tomorrow morning can eh??huhuu
but dun worry.i'll be back before 7pm.i'm gonna make sure i'm home before 6.30pm..insyaAllah..so dun worry k lalink...beb too..plz dun worry too much..
*sorry for what happened tonite..haishh..*

now my mind keep thinking lots of things.things about schools..
which in my life.i only know 4 schools..
1. my tabika KEMAS..:p
2. sekolah kebangsaan ahmad
3. sekolah menengah kebangsaan ahmad
n of course my memorable school ever
MRSM KKB..:D

opps..its already 4.30am..so gonna have to wait for the sahur.weh..i'm so hungry now coz last nite i didn't eat rice.juz 1 date,a glass of water n a bowl of 'pengat pisang'..then i already sleep..huhu..
so now i want to eat rice..hehe..
erk..my bmi has increased.while others decreasing their weight but i'm the one who gain weight..huhu..but today i dun care..still wanna eat rice a lots..:p

p/s:-well.i done blog walking to an old fren's blog today.i lost her url actually so does she.so now gonna keep it.dun wanna lost contact again..:)

dun know~

its 3.20am now..T_T
what am i doing rite now??adeh..
still wake up..why?
coz i already sleep from 2100 till 2310..hmmm
why?
it has become one of my habit nowadays..huk3..
n then i can't sleep till now..
heh..my eyes already sleepy now.
but if i sleep now,will i easily wake up for the 'sahur'??
totally question mark there..haha..
so what to do?
ok..
lets finish this crap entry then go to sleep..
hopefully my eyes can easily open on 0500
n owh..its juz another less than 100minutes from now..!!
GTG..:p

fasting month~~

counting days to back home

counting days to back pahang..

counting days to meet old frens...

lots of things in my mind...hmm...

have to face tests,quizes,lab reports and classes first..!!huu...:|

today(28/8/10)

having a great day..peace..V^_^V

thx to my......

sorry can't write here..above all,thx a lots...:)

for everything..

i know i will never found another person like u in my life..ever...thats one thing i can guaranteed..*wink*

haha..stop it.or else u all will think different..nahh..right now,i juz love all my frens n my family..no more special person for a while..

wish i can stay stronger a bit longer coz i dun want to be hurt again after all..:)

thx to both my besties that keep giving me advices n always n always lend me ur shoulder each time i need them..thx lalink,thx beb..:)

i know nothing can i do to pay back...

ok3..now lets story bout this fasting month..

hmm..i think it a bit better than two years before..well..that time i was totally a bad girl.

but this year,i won't repeat it again...ever...

but still i need advices n reminder always from people around me..especially from my besties..

will ya both of u stay with me always??plz3...really dun know what will happen if i loose one of u..huhu..

had enough losing 2 of my besties before..not these another two..

n thx a lots for keep staying with me..thx3...

thats all i can say..i know it never enough..:)

well...times to sleep..tomorrow got to finish all those work.n do some cal exercise like today..:) i'm back to love cal because of u lalink..thx..:))

p/s:-adeh..can't stop calling u lalink.maybe i'll stop it when u already give me sis in law..huhu..hopefully la..:p

FSG..!!

last nite:- totally can't believe i'm a member of FSG..
know what FSG mean here?supposely fakulti sains gunaan.but then its turned to be FAKULTI SKEMA GILER...!!!
shut gle3...

even the nerdy are the best shouter last nite n us????juz stared at others having fun all nite long..>_< whatever it is already finish our crazy week.so this weekend wanna have my rest..:) today:- sleeping n sleeping with them..haha..wasting time..:D mood right now: bored+ sleepy.. dun know what to do..lazy to do works..:p

p/s:-done sleeping all day long..wanna go n do something..huhu..fb,u always reveal me with few shocking news..haishh~~

criterias 2

continue from previous entry~~

the forth criterias that i want is.................
have permanent job/income per month
haha..i'm totally being materialistic..:p

the fifth
possessd own car..(even still pay monthly but its ok.as long as he has his own car.not family's car that can be taken away anytime)..hua3..

ok..
enough of this..
i'm creeping out now coz i wanna go back home today..weee..:D
waiting for cik ecah to pick me up..hehe..

till then,see ya later..:)

third week

its been ages i guess didn't post here
reasons:-
1. already start class n everything
2. nothing to say
3.so hard to get on9 lol..!!

y?coz now staying in college so the wifi is totally gonna make me crazy..huhu..

ok..above all i juz fine here.(hopefully)
plus i juz get dizzy learn back all those things i already thrown away long time ago.hahaha..serve me right~~lalala

now its time to sleep as my timetable for this sem totally not suitable n fun like part 5 since almost all start at 8.30 am especially on friday...!!waaa..:( dun like it so much lol..

ok2..gud nite everyone..:)
p/s:lately i missed him.y eh?sud i delete him from my memory again?how??

new sem,new spirit...aminnn

wishing this new semester will give me new spirit..
i wanna try my very best for each subject.no more like before..insyaAllah...

well..today my day went very smoothly..
i got the college easily n the best part we manage to reserve and put tiero n yat's name with us too..:)
thanks ya Allah for making my day so easy today..alhamdulillah..i'm so glad..

tomorrow will be settling my registeration in faculty.hope everything will goes well too..aminn..:)

*suddenly i was purposely open his fb.there you go..._ _ is a relationship with........
ok..at last u admit it to the world as i know u already brought her to ur family n everything.so i hope u will not waste her like u did to me..*sigh*
i hate when i miss u..wish u never exist in my life as i totally dun even remember u from the past.but then when u forced me to remembered u,i tried so hard till i can remember at least ur face back in those old times..i shouldn't tried to do that before..ohh..plz..sud i delete almost everything again?????

p/s:-my mood totally ruined..hmm..but i dun want to cry juz because of u again..never...!!!

i can't decide

making decision..its totally my big weaknesses...:(
i can't even make a very simple decision.
not for others not even for myself..!!silly me..!!

my bestie said:- dun think too much for something.juz do it..

hmm..sorry lalink i troubled u for the whole day.i keep adding others problem..haish..y i'm so useless??
when they need help,i never help them.not even make them smile back..at least a bit..

too much things in my head now..my brain totally exhausted now.can't think anything more..sorry beb..sorry lalink.sorry yunk..sorry everyone...:((

WGACA..remember that..!!

ok..
for the rest of my life,i never say the love words to someone i didn't love or mean it for REAL..
i only said them for REAL...
never ever to play with someone feelings coz i dun even have the heart to do that...

then,if i already love u for real n u are actually juz playing with my feeling,then here it comes the time for me to hate u..
if i love people for real,then i'll hate U for REAL too..!!
n thx for giving me such a concrete reason for me too hate u..thanks..!!
huh..

WGACA..!!i really wanna shout this at u coz its the karma of life..got it??
right now i really hate u coz i dun want to hate myself anymore..

p/s:-i tried so hard to forgive u coz u really break my heart again.plz lah..juz admit that she's ur gf ever coz u already bring her to meet ur family..huh..can't u be loyal hah???

alhamdulillah

alhamdulillah..thats all i can say right now..
i already accepted to continue my study in foodtech..
i'm so happy for a second
but then i am so sad for all my beloved frens..
most of them dun get the offer..
i really dun know what else to say to them.i know they are too disappointed for this moment but i can't do anything for them make me feel more useless.
ya Allah..plz dun test them like this..i need them to further my study.
i need them so much coz without them,i dun know how to survive there alone..gosshhh
ALONE??

i keep praying they will get the offer later.maybe after the system updating again after this..
its really weird for them not getting the offer as some of them got higher result from me in diploma.so what the exact thing make them rejected by Uitm??
ya Allah..i really hope they will get the offer too..
right now i can't feel happy at all coz i need my frens...
:(

p/s:-ohh..i have to on my hp coz i need to calm down my frens..huhu..i dun want to be selfish as so far that i know i'm on the very few list who got the offer..from 50++ students right now i only know about less than 10 get the offer..its totally insane..!!

saying goodbye

woot woot..hahaa
i'm getting crazy..peace..:D
well,to all my fren that read this blog n cntc me on fb,sorry coz i deactivate my account for a while till unknown time..
i'll only keep online with my invisible ym,myspace,frenster n my beloved blog only..peace..:D

its really hard decisions coz i love fb so much..waa..T_T
but then this is the best solution for the time being as i dun want to know anything bout him anymore..
well,it hurt me a lots when looking at his profile or reading his comment with others while he's ignoring n avoiding me..lol..

what ever it is,i'm going to be fine..yeah..!!
i will by hook or by crook..hahaa..sorry..getting out of my mind again..:p

ok2..now its time for me to be far away from my beloved fren for a while..dun worry my kembar 4,i'll be back soon..maybe too soon..hehe coz i'll miss each of u so much..!!
so right now its time for me to make myself busy with everything here..hohoo..thx a lots to bleach coz it keep my mind busy watching them till i forgot lots of things..:P

to beb,thx a lots for everything but maybe our ways of handling problems are different which make me a bit difficult to do things as u want.its not that i dun want to tell u everything about my feeling but i have trouble u alots already with everything.hehe..thx for those time n advices..:)

p/s:-getting nervous waiting for the continuation result..adoih..make me crazy..huhu...i pray each of us will get place to continue our study together..aminn..:)

stop.plz

ya Allah...what wrong with him nowadays??
i try to be +ve that u dun have crdt to reply my msgs.ok fine
i try to be +ve when u on9 n suddenly offline to me...ok..
its fifa world cup n u once told me u want to watch them..still be ok..
i thought u are so busy with the work till u dun hve time to talk to me..i still can accept it.
then..
i heard about ur schoolmates's accident which one of them passed away.
so i thought u r so sad u dun wan hve any mood to talk with anybody..
so i tried to understand n gve u some space...
but
when i read ur comments on those photos with others,u cn laugh n joking with others happily..
like nothing wrong with u..

so tell me.should i still think positive bout you??
i dun know what else to do or say right now.
i can't even tell anybody how i feel coz u prohibited me to tell anyone about us..
y??coz i'm juz ur 5th 'wives',itsn't it??
or maybe i have been thrown away from the list...*sigh*
it hard to pretend i'm fine n still happy with all these things..it really hard u know????

i really dun know how to get rid of these feelings..
:((
i hate myself for being like this..
but i dun know what to do..
hmmmm

*beb,i totally agree with u juz now but i really dun know what to do to forget him..so sorry beb for keep disappointing u...haishh....*

p/s:-all these things make me crazy~~looks like my heart getting weaker not stronger...silly me..!!

rainbow

rainbow is so beautiful..weee...
the 7layer colour really make me feel this world is so beautiful..
alhamdulillah with this Allah's creation i can remember Him back..
*already gone too far from the right path..huhu..*

well,this pic taken by me at the 10th floor of this building with my beloved 5320 so its totally can't show the real beauty i saw yesterday's evening..:)

hoho...suddenly i remember i have few crazy pic which i took before but i can't put in fb.so can i put them here??hehe..
i'm out of my mind again..:D



writing on my body again..:p

this one actually i can't post them..huhu..
know y?
see the njAm?
who know what is mean??
ok..nja=my full name..
but njAm=........
my name+ his name..huhu..
i almost change my name in fb into this actually but then i realize i can't do that coz he belongs to someone else...*sigh*

ok.enough bout him.everyday i can't stop thinking bout him but does he remember me at least for a minute in a day?i don't think so coz he dun even call me n dun reply to my msgs..hmm
i tried to be cruel to him but then it hurt me by doing so as i miss him so much..
ok fine..juz shoot me plz..!!

p/s:-my mood swing too fast now..sorry everyone...

L.O.V.E??

LOVE..hmm..this four letters really has messed me up so much..haish..

now the issue is LOYAL..
does u know what this 5 letters means??
does u know how to value them??
i bet u don't.
if u do u should have value her from the beginning..
u won't play around with my feeling like this..
yes recently u don't even call me dear or any other names like before.
but from the first place y did u make me believe that u love me??
yaa.then here it comes my stupidity by trusting u easily.
u know y i choose to believe u at the beginning?
coz i dun want to let u down.i dun know how to say no as i'm so afraid it will make u sad..
n now looks like it all my fault for loving u..
huh..stop asking me who's the guy coz u sud know its U...!!no one else for this moment.but still u act like u dun even make any mistakes at all...

urff..now i would like to tell u,it totally not worth it for me to stay loyal for u.
i know it my fault for still loving u after the truth reveal but this is me coz i only say it when i meant it for real.not like u..!!
i really wish u read this AM.coz i'm sick being a fool for u..do everything u ask me to do just to make sure u r fine n happy even i cried like hell here..but in the end it turns out to be my fault for those things i done for u..
thx 4 blaming me...thx a lots for using 'aku' in those msgs coz u r the one who change them into am,jan,sy n awk so dun blame me if i hate u change in into 'aku ko' in suddenly as i already want to change them before but u r the one who insist to use name...

urff...enough la for all u're doing..i had them enough..

p/s:-sorry coz all my entry totally about how i feel to his actions coz i dun know where else to let it go..:|

sorry.coz i am a-----

can i type in malay??
coz my head totally blocked already..huhu...*actually dun know this word that i want to say in english..muahahaha..*
my english is bad..nope
horrible
nope..
plus terrible..
kuang3...

ok2..yesterday 09/06/2010..
i went out..where??
ice skating..*my first time..huk2..*
well..i'm bad at balancing my body..totally..people with me yesterday know how bad i am..:p
so sorry~~~
n thousand n million thanks for helping me all the ways yesterday...totally thanks for everything..
ok2..
what i'm trying to say in the title is
sorry coz i am a......
'manje girl'..!!
hua3..

it really hard to change to be more matured..haish..i think that because i dun hve a fun childhood like others before.so till now i'm still a 'manje girl'...especially with people close to me..T_T

to beb n my bestie...so sorry for everything i have done..adoih..i'm totally feel really uselesss now..sorry beb..but seriously,i rather lose the one that i love rather than lose anyone of u in my life...i know i dun know how to show my appreciation towards both of u..in fact i never do..but i really hope both of u know it...will ya??plz do that...

hmmm..ok2..
enough of all the tears for tonight..haha.i'm fine with u all around me..thx to both my besties...:D
*my besties now left two only..huhu..i already lose 2..dun wanna lose another two..it really hard to go through the day without u all*

p/s:-student portal sewel..!!tensed3..>_<