10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called “best friend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick” she said; he’s not going to go well, I didn’t have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as “best friends”. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes.I want her to be mine, but she isn’t think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said “I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, “you’re my best friend, thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say “I do” and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said “you came!”. She said “thanks” and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my “best friend”. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn’t notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love him but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too…` I thought to my self, and I cried.
-taken from note's in fb-
Friendship is...
a close bond between two or more people.There is nothing in this world more valuable than having someone who cares about you. When it's three a.m. and the world seems like it is going to end, you can always call a friend. They'll probably grumble, tell you to go back to bed, and show up at your door a few hours later with an arm full of bagels and fresh brewed coffee.
Beyond your family, the special people you choose to become close to are your friends. They laugh with you, at you, about you, but only when you're present to witness this in good humor. Their goal is to brighten your day when your shadow is casted in blue.
No matter if it's your next door neighbor, or your grade school penpal, you can tell a friend anything. A true friend won't tell your secrets, listens with an open ear, and doesn't pass judgement over the milk you spilled.
When the storm clouds have gathered over your head, and the rain begins to fall. You can call upon your friendships to spread an umbrella over your head. Sometimes the sound of a familiar voice can bring forth a little sunlight on your day.
If you slipped in the mud, the hand of friendship will pull out. Maybe even throw down a coat to protect your sandal strapped feet from soil. Friendship has a way of dropping everything to aid you in your time of need. It's always there, close by, despite its physical distance.
You lend your favorite shirt for the sake of a first date. From hair style, to shoe color you give free advice. You stay up late, wait, waiting for the night's review. All at the cost of a good book instead of that great sale going on at the mall. Freindship can't always afford a phone. But it can produce a double date on occasion.
During our lifetime friendships will sprout, grow, and blossom. Some will fade out, change, and just run out of water and die. The number of friendships gained is up to you. If you're a social butterfly than your friendship belt bears many notches, but if you're reserved then perhaps you only have a few tucked in your pants. How many friendships we have is not as important as the depth of the friendships we endure. I'll always be friends with the people I hung out with in high school, but where are they now?
There is one friendship you will value more than the others - the best friend. Thinking of it this way. You hit the jackpot! A true friend, one you can share all your secrets with, is worth more than a million dollars.
Now that's a lot of boxes of tissues.
So when you look at the people around you, and you think to yourself, "Friendship is..." the answer is diverse. The friendships I hold today are far from the ones I had ten, fifteen years ago. While some of the people may be the same, new ones are waiting to cross the threshold from acquaintance hall. It's knowing when to let them in that defines us.
Let friendship post bond in your life and free you from the cold swirl of loneliness. One great friendship is worth three hundred acquaintances .
Friendship is truly a blessing. Based on all of the things it is, count yourself as highly fortunate if you have a real friend or two in this world. And, be sure to nurture that friendship and put forth the effort to keep it intact.
-taken from someone's note in fb-
Bismillah (al rahman al rahim)
Ya allah, tuhan yang lebih mengetahui sesuatu,Kau restuilah hubungan kami berdua, dekatkanlah jodoh kami,Jangan kau pisahkan kami, bukakan lah pintu hati kami untuk kami saling menyayangi dan lebih memahami, kau limpahilah nur hidayah mu kepada kami ya allah.Sesungguh nya dia amat bermakna sekali dalam hidupku, sesungguh nya dia lah terletaknya segala impian dalam hidupku, sesungguhnya tiada yang lain ku sayang dan cinta selain dia. Engkau bukakan lah pintu hatinya untuk memahami akan segala isi hati ku terhadapnya. Engkau lembutkan lah hati kerasnya. Engkau buka kan lah pintu hatinya untuk menyayangiku, mengasihiku dan menyintaiku seperti mana aku sayang, kasih dan cinta padanya. Engkau berikanlah kami kekuatan dalam mengharungi apa jua rintangan dan ujian dari mu. Sesungguhnya aku redha dan menerima kehadirannya dalam hidup aku seadanya dan aku juga lebih bersyukur kepada setiap nikmat yang telah kau kurnia kan kepada ku. Kau rahmatilah perasaan kasih sayang kami berdua. Berikan lah ruang kepada kami untuk bersama.Berikanlah ruang kepada keluarga kami berdua untuk menjalinkan hubungan persaudaraan bersama. Engkau kurniakan lah kami semua penolongmu agar membimbing kami untuk terus berada di jalan mu yang benar.Sesungguhnya walaupun apa jua kelakuannya pada ku, dia tetap segala galanya bagi aku dan dirinya amat bermakna dalam hidupku. Amin ya rabbal alamin.
taken from a friend's note in fb..
