erk...y it become like this??

adoih...i'm so sick with my blog right now..
after i change the templates (with the teddy one),my bestie told me that he can't comment on my entry..
ok fine..so i check the settings n there's nothing wrong with it..
fine..
then i change the templates again..(which lots of things happen actually n i almost already)
still can't comment..
haishhh..then i put the chatbox another problem occured..!!
the chatbox also crazy..!!
shut gle..!!
fed up3....
dun want to change anything again coz i really dun know y this happen..T_T
waa...i love my blog so much but y this happen??:((
maybe i'll use the classic template after this...haishhh....hate it lah..i want my old blog..sob3....

p/s:-lots of test already today..AM,i waited for ur call this morning n also the pic u promised but there's nothing from u..waaa..i even dreamed i talk to u on phone..haishh..have to wait till tomorrow's evening for u to arrive at singapore..huk3..u promised last nite to call me this morning but u didn't..i'm so sad....:(( even yesterday u forgot to call me..aaaa...really make me crazy now..need u dear...

criterias~~

huh..i'm getting bored with all ur doing lah..so bored..so right now,i'm transforming into a cruel girl..yep..a very2 cruel girl ever~~(heh..in fact i juz want to make my heart stronger..:p)

well before this i dun really matter about all of these things but right now,i'll make it the guidelines...

ok..so for this entry i would like to put the criterias for a man that wanna be my next lover..if lack one,u r totally REJECTED....!!

1. EXTREMELY HANDSOME
y?coz i'm bored with all those people already.all this while i never care about look n appearance.but this time,i will absolutely make this the barrier..huhh..
n how i described handsome guy?? sorry.all this life time i only said 2 guys are handsome coz i rarely said it..

2. RICH
hah..i already become a materialistic girl juz like many other girls..so what??before this i dun even care about this too but now,no more...u have to be a really rich guy so that if i ask anything u can fulfill them immediately..:D

3. INTELLIGENT
y?coz i'm bored with all those guy which actually make me feel silly before..
at least if u r intelligent,then it can promise me a great life in future right??

4. HMMMM
still in process..but i'll add this criteria later on.i will...!!

huh..dun blame me.blame THEM for breaking my heart again n again before this..i had it enough.i trust people easily so that others will do the same for me..i love others without doubt but in the end they choose other girl..before this i am juz a simple girl but right now,NO MORE...!!
this jannah has completely changed..n again.dun blame me,blame THEM for turning me into this person..!!

exhausted

for this past 5 months in year 2010 i have been totally crazy..
huh..never expected to be fool twice in such a very short time.
i know people will say i crazy or anything
but i can't help it to happen..
yes my heart has been too fragile recently
but

i can't denied it anymore...
i miss him..everyday i want to talk with him.
no not everyday..almost every hour actually..
i missed to laugh happily with him n listen to all those words..
what words??love words....
everytime i heard them,i am so happy..
but then i stood up for a while.
its not true.
its just a lie from him..hmmm...

but still i can't help myself to pick up every single call from him.
if i missed one,i was terribly sorry for him.
then chatting..
we chat happily n there it goes he took my heart away again..
haishhh...y u did that dear??
the only thing i can't understand bout u,y do all those things??
y u make me feel too special and then u said its nothing coz i'm just ur fren.not more than that..
i keep asking u last nite y do this to me..
but the answer i got still the same..
u dun know y n i'm ur fren.....
*sigh*

today i tried to be more natural to u.no more special words for u n no more special words from u too..
i tried to say the word 'aku' n 'ko' but i can't..
instead i still use 'sy','awk',jannah n am with u...*sigh*

beb,i need to be stronger but plz dun raise ur voice with me..huhu..u make me scared by doing that.i know u have done all the things u can do for me to make me happy n sorry coz still i missed him a lots..so sorry beb

end of story plz...dun want to think too much about u coz it only tear my heart apart again n again...
n did u know each time i listened to that 'yang terindah' song,my heart cried so much..y did u sing that song to me if u never mean it for me???
totally can't understand u AM...hopefully u dun do that anymore after this coz i dun think my heart can take it anymore tests from u..

p/s:-y i can't even feel mad at u eh?even u ask me to scold u for doing that to me but still i can't scold u..all i can say to u,its not ur fault...silly me..!!that yang terindah song keep ringing in my head for the whole day..y u sing it for me???urff....

hate myself

i did it again..stupid me.
i'm the most stupid girl in the world again...
i really hate myself..really3...

ya Allah..y must u let me open my heart if it just to be broke again n again??
i really wanna cry.
to AM..i should know i'm juz ur fren.never more than that as u have too many girlfrens already..
great.then as i said i knew u have too many girlfren already but y do i stil believe in u??

tell me,if someone keep telling that he love u.miss u.wanna take u there n there..send regards to his mother in law(which refer to ur own mum),keep calling u with syg,say that he miss u n everything.again calling u his wife or what so ever....so what am i suppose to expect???
surely i expect he really mean it for real..
but then suddenly he said,i'm juz ur fren or besfren only..

i hate men for easily saying those things for no reason at all..y all man are the same??
playing around with my feelings..great..keep doing it men...when i dun believe u,u beg me to believe.then the moment i already believe u n already love u then only u said we r juz FRIEND..!!
great...
what a great games...!!thousand thanks men..!!

p/s:-u hurt me..thx for that.

dun play with the love word plz~~

for me right now love isn't a thing that we can play around on it anymore.
since already reach this age,for me when we say we love someone,u have to be very sure about it.
huh?think i'm too serious?
well..its not that i want to be like this.but since my age going to be 20th this year so i think its not wrong to think futher on the future.
i'm done with all those puppy love or what so ever
what i want right now is a real relationship.which will be maintained to the end of life.
which will never changes no matter what happen.
the one that never fade through times or distance
the one that never ever forgetten or regrets..!

hmmm..but till now i still didn't found it yet.
ok fine..i'm still too young actually but still i need to think bout my future..
unfortunately,my biggest weakness is i never failed to love someone back if they confess to me even before that i have no feeling at all..
but then..still i need a bit time.n normally its not going to be too long..(1-2weeks is not long right??)
but i dun know why the time i already love them,they already closed they heart by that time.
gosh...i dun know what else to do.

before this i might be find someone that i love.
but then i changed the principle.accept people who love us coz some saying said the one who love us is whole lots better compared to someone we loved but never love us back..
but still it don't work..T_T
hmm..*sigh*

so please3...to all men out there.
dun u ever dare to play with love words if u never meant it for real..!!
can't u only say it when u really2 love that girl n willing to go through everything with her??
plz..not for fun again..
i'm done with all those jokes already....plz lah..do understand..
i have feelings ok??not juz a doll or robot or stone...ish..hate my heart also.
can't u dun easily believe in those words jannah??
silly me..stupid me..
fine..so right now,only FRIENDSHIP allowed..huh...


p/s:-i feel a bit silly when he said he only love me as a fren coz he love all his fren..hmm..dun know what to say lah..if u really juz love me as a fren then y do u have to say that ILYSM before this??
ok.thinking +vely,maybe u said that coz i said he's too rush in everything n i'm not ready yet..i dun knowlah..i really can't understand any man anymore..T_T
need rest~~mentally

counting the moments..fuhhh

oh dear..i'm so nervous waiting for the call..
haishh..crazy me lah for the moments..keep counting the moments for ur call..
aaaa....i'm so afraid..

luckily u can't make any call yesterday.if not,i'm totally dead already..
huu..i juz pray u'll be safe on the sea..huh???sea??
yup..that guy is in the ship on the sea..(oh..sgt tkut ble di fkrkn.worried)

erk..worried??y??
hmm..see..its not that difficult for me like someone.but i'm so afraid to be fooled again..
i thought i dun wan to have any long distance relationship anymore coz i'm done being fool like before...
but if i choose this guy,its going to be whole lots of loooonnngg distance relationship forever..!!huuu..
right now he's still studying so its going to be only 3-4 months on the sea.
so when he work,it must be more that 6months he's there..!!
so??? can i bear about it??
no contact for few days.perhaps weeks..!!gosh...
too much things in my head now..can't decide anything yet...T_T

oh3..heart,plz tell me what to do??
(sy dh la amt manja n cpt risau kalo xdpt cntc 1 hr pn..now its going to be weeks???)
gosh...!!
my head spinning around thinking bout this..hmm..
whatever,i'm still waiting for the call..(oh mase,cpt lah..)
i can't take it anymore..err..no3...i dun have any scripts to tell yet..
so right now,let do the script first..!!chaiyuk2 for myself..


p/s:-today is 'his' besday.so happy besday lah ek.n gud luck for ur paper too..

gonna faint..!!

oh goshh..!!
what am i suppose to do now??
am i ready for this at the moment??
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..........!!!
really dun know what to do...huk3...

u drive me crazy..totally..!!

hmm...know y i become like this?
its all due to this 1 guy.
someone who suddenly come back in my life n suddenly say that he love me..!!
oh goshhh..
it so sudden..i thought he's juz playing around.
but3....
he already claimed me as his wife to his fren..!!ok..thats fine for joke only.
but when he said he miss me n love me over n over again,i totally speechless..
really dun know what to do..
seriously i'm gonna faint.everytime u call,my heart was like pulled out from my chest..!
gosshhh....this guy totally make me crazy..

its not that i dun like u.ok.honestly i already start to like u..
i repeat.LIKE..
for this moment its not LOVE yet..
y?itsn't this is what i'm want before??
yes..i know i really want to be love again.but totally didn't expect it so fast at this moment..!!
waaaaaa....dun know what to do.
my heart still doubt it coz it just recovering from the cuts before..
i'm so afraid...i'm so afraid..for reall..!!

AM I READY FOR THIS AT THIS MOMENTS????

*sigh*
it is just another test or it is another luck or 'rahmat' for me??
i really dun know...
to am,if only u read this i know it will hurt u a lots..
but..as i said last nite,i dun deserved a good guy like u....:(
coz i'm a bad girl after all..

to beb,sorry coz keep making u worried due to this...seriously i dun know what to do...


p/s:-y i LOVE always make me crazy??ya Allah..plz tell me what to do???
should i accept him or just say no?but,i really dun want to disappointed him as i know how bad it hurt...

thanks..:)

yesterday's evening after commenting2 with my kembar2 at fb,

i said i 'merajuk' with them n wanna my cheese cake..!!:p


suddenly around 3pm,mr AAA text me inviting me to go out..weeee~~:D
so i wait for them to pick me up n we when to JJ alpha angel with them..:)

we chit chatting happily in the car.

fogetting our problems.share few things with my kembar...(sorry coz i'm disturbing ur date actually.hahaha)




then we went to secret recipe..weee..:D

cheese cake..!!

alallala..

white-dark choc cheese cake for me..:D

classic cheese cake for them..

chocolate whipped cream for each..!!:D

lepaking there from 4.30pm-6.30pm

then only we went home..:)

thx my kembar2...love u all so much...

thx for making me smile again after a horrible week...

even only 3 of us yesterday but i really happy..

coz i know u all always there for me..thx again..!!:D

p/s:-thx to beb coz always make sure i'm smiling too..:)

insyaAllah will continue smiling..thx a lots everyone...to my bestie too..chaiyuk2 for final..!!

should i....

gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love~~

this week is totally not my week.*sigh*
i really need my strength now.but suddenly i lost each of them.every single of them
every single of my happiness
n almost take my breath away..

i can't say anything more.
before this i pray u'll be happy always n never be hurt again..
so right now,u already got it.
so i shouldn't be like this.

i try so hard to smile even its too hurt n really hard..
even when my heart totally shattered nowhere.
even my heart screaming but this is the truth.
so jannah,plz accept it.
i should have prepared for this.
unfortunately i'm not..

so what to do now?
can't talk to anyone for the moment n plz i can't talk right now..
i need to be strong even the sky seem falled on my lap already...
should i cry like hell??
or should i just text him,congrats..??

i choose to be silent.but that is not me..i need to be alone n talk to my bestie..
but...he's preparing for final.should i call u laling?*sigh*
i know u already remind me that i can call u when i need u but....
its totally inappropriate time..
when u read this,do tell me.hopefully i'm strong enough to wait for that moment as i really dun know how to face this alone..

p/s:-heh,i'm the silly one for still hoping for him..somebody,do shoot me now..wanna end this feeling~~

mr/mrs eggs

oh..i thought today going to be better..(the day is stil long,so keep praying it will be fine)

but right now,i so full of smells of eggs..!!

know y?

juz now i just trying to cook food for my lunch.while at the kitchen,i juz wondering what sud i cook?but then i juz prepared few things..

hmm..i moved to the right to put the oil back but then...

prakkkk..!!

OMG...

i juz dropped the..

the eggs case...!!

there u go...two mr eggs has been landed on the floor..T_T

huu..i thought i want to cook it but now i already broke it..sorry mr eggs..

i really wanna eat u but didn't expect this will happen..*sigh* clumsy girl..

so then i start to cleaned up the mess..so right now my hand smells with eggs..urrff..

owh.when this happen,it reminds of few things..

1st,a bad memories while practical training.hmm..

this guy(a worker there),we don't talk nicely since a few quarells happen.but after this incident,i nver spoke to him till the last day of my prac as i come to apologises..

*i didn't remember i have wrote about this or not b4..hahaa..*

ok2..actually this incident happen while this guy doing his work(pack things).but thenhe has to moved about few thousand of telur puyoh in the rack to the other side.as the rack put one on another n its heavy okeyh?so we usually lift 3-4racks only at one time.but this guy he's so arrogant that time saying he want to lift more than 5racks at one time.so i juz remind him,"angkt sket2 la..jth nnt.brt tuh"

then he replied:- "alah,blehnye"

me:-"ok..up to u.juz reminding"

suddenly,prannggg...!!!

there it goes,almost 1 rack of the eggs has fall on the floor n broke..

n he delibarately say i was my fault..!!oh goshh...!!he really make me mad that day..

ok..end of story..

2ndly,it happen when i'm form3 located at the camping site(motivational camping),which is juz for the middle group of student (means tgh2,xpndi sgt n xde la truk sgt result)..which held for only 40students.heee..this is my favourite camp ever coz..this where i start to like one guy..:p *ok2..this entry is not bout him*

while at this camp,we has been assigned to responsible for one egg for each person.we have to bring them everywhere we go in the camp including in every activities..lol..it was so hard to take care of it especially when having outdoor activities..ok.one night we are having a night walk,walking in a group while our eyes covered with thick scarf.we hold hand one another and the joint for girl n boys is also a scarf tied to their hand..so the first person has to follow a stick which we totally dun know who guide us n then we have to follow the rope.while we can't see each other,so we have to trust our groupmate as there is time we have to crawl on the ground n also lots of things..

owh,that nite,it was terrible for me as there was 'someone' will disturb us along the journey.but unfortunately that 'someone' actually keep disturbing me only in my group..!!waaa...(i dun know which teacher)...that someone purposely trapped me in a stinks shirt,pulled my hand over from my fren's foot while crawling,breaks an egg on my shirt when 'he' said 'he' is hungry,then splash me with me water when one of my groupmate say he is thirsty..oh mine..n also that 'someone' purposely stop me on a group of ants..huuu....i repeat,ONLY ME that has to go through all the situations on the group while others juz relaxingn almost fall asleep..lol..i really can't stand the egg's smell on my shirt u know?try on ur own.haha..

hmm.about the egg that we have to take care till end of camping,i manage to take care of it well even on the night walk while others has break the egg early.i was so happy that time..but sadly only about one more hour to end the camp,i accidently break the eggs in my pocket..!!shut gle..!!

T_T so then i was covered by egg smells..again..!!

p/s:-i miss to be happy like in the camping again.but no more eggs plz..!!haha..:D

i hate when..

great..!!
my day totally ruined today.from the morning till to this moments..urff..
i had it enough la weh..
i dun know y i never disturb ur relationship.in fact i dun even call u.u r the one who keep calling me lah when ur gf has sleep..huh...(dsr bdk xsdr dri sggh)
now u r saying n laughing at me coz i'm still single..so what???
do i care that u already have gf??huh..i dun give a damn attention bout that u know??

*sorry i really hate it when someone who actually has been rejected by me a long time ago n now already have new gf say things like that to me...huh..(mcm la aku mati coz reject ko dlu)*

*sigh*
my day always like this.at one moment,everyone wanna make me laugh like hell.but then when i really need someone to talk no one here.y eh??
i know i'm not a good fren to anyone but.....am i really have to be sad n gloomy all my life time??urrff...heart,plz be calm..i need the tranquility back..really2 need it..
:((

now,nothing can make me smile back..hmm..

*beb,sorry coz i've been troubling u from the day we met again in fb till this moments..i shouldn't even call u like this as i know it will actually not good for ur relationship.oh..didn't mean to ruin ur relationship with her...i know if u read this,u will juz say 'its nothing,dun think like that or some other words to make me smile again...but..its not the right thing to do lah..coz i dun want to be labelled as 3rd person or buggy who disturbing ur relationship..so sorry beb*

p/s:-i'm so emotional right now.dun know y..i need to talk to someone.but dun have anyone right now.so i juz have to keep it to myself for a while..hmm...T_T *feel like crying.sigh*
ya Allah,dun test me like this.it really drive me crazy....:(

i dun understand

pic b4 tgk movie..iron man 2 on 30th april..:D

well2..

this morning get phone calls from few important persons.

1st my sister..

hmm..she asked me to do something at the moment as my mum do actually report about me to her.hmmpphh..ok fine.then its my fault.i accept it..

second one is from my bestie..

suddenly calling me as she ask him to do that.ok fine..juz go with the flow..

even i almost being too clumsy when we made plan to meet up at the moments but still i'm fine with it..:D

well..when she want to 3g with me,its kind da weird actually but fine i juz go with the flow again..ahaakkss..

it totally weird n chaos a bit.so i dun know what to say.juz laughing again n again..haha

sorry eh my sis-in-law..:)

n sorry if u think i'm playing around as i laugh when u keep saying sorry when the plan cancel.actually i'm kind da shock a bit so i really2 speechless lah..hee..

n for my bestie,dun worry i totally dun get angry at all.luckily u call back to cancel the plan early as i dun even start to changed my cloth n everything..u r luckily this time u know?:p

ok2..

now close the story...right now i feel nothing actually..but juz now i hve been stupidly open his page.(again) n open the other girl page as well.n there u go..the word 'cayang' as i thought is there...lol

who ask u to do that jannah?now,serve u right..

lalallaalal~~

maen2 cube baju nite b4 jln2..=xde keje lg..:D

hahaa...this pic taken at my brother's room while he's out that night...:p sorry bro..ahaks..

well.the next day i went out with this cloth..hee..kindda weird i think.but i dun care lah..its me..ahakks..(my brain getting crazy.again..)

owh..i have few pics to show.i do this last few night.i know i'm crazy..dun be mad eh beb coz i done this..:p

i love this pic..:)

and this pic too..:D

ok2..as u can see i made them as my wallpaper right?

but dun worry i juz put it for that moment only.after i snap this pic,i quickly removed it.dun believe uh??next time i put the pic of my wallpaper..hehe..:D

well the first pic of him i love it coz he's smiling sweetly.ahakkss..

2nd pic because he send this pic juz after he snap it otw to KL before n i love his smile at this moment..

ok2..stop it jannah..*shoot me plz*

lol..i ask him y he still put that girl's pic as wallpaper but he said juz for fun.on the other hand i actually put his pic the nite before he post the pic on fb..ahahahaa..i laugh a lots that time..we both juz do the same thing but different pics..:D (of coz different pic..hua3..)

whatever it is..i'm fine now.insyaAllah..strengthen my heart..:D juz wish i will stop doing craps things again..to my beb,thx a lots for making me laugh always..hehe...thousand thx to u lah..:D :)

healing n shielding..again??

these few days i have been too happy with my life..
i laugh like all this world belong to me..
keep smiling n smiling...

then today(7th may)
i went out with k.ifa n one of old frens from primary school.even we both dun even remember each other but still we had fun while hangout..

but then i'm home,on9 n this very hateful feeling owned my heart..shut lah weh..!!
i hate it...
damn it..!!
y it suddenly come back to me??
keep hurting me n killing me after for 1 month i'm fine without him..
y should i miss him again??arghhh..
its drive me crazy..totally..


hmmm3..ok2..stop it lah jannah..u r totally a grown person.so dun be ridiculous...
stop with all these craps n be MATURED..!!!
yes..i need to be matured.no more childish jannah..ok3??
u have gone through this before.so this time it should be easier.
no i mean,totally easier than before..yes i can n i will do this again...chaiyuk2..!!
:)

mode:-strengthen my heart again..healing process n shielding...yes i can do this..
i know i will..when u believe..hahaa..:D

holiday vs ???

ahaks...i think these holiday is the most bored one..haishh..
dun know what to do..(actually lots of things i can do but i'm too lazy lol.:p)

hmm..seriously i missed my kembar 4 n kembar 2 so much..
when we will be hang out again guy n gurls??
i thought of meeting on this weekend but sadly both guys are not coming..so,what to do?
the plan cancel off.again..adoih my kembar2...
i'm so bored already..hmmm

well2..tomorrow going out with k.ifa..hehe..
another date for us..:p
owh.i dun even decide what to wear tomorrow..haha..
so got to go lah..
wanna check everything so that i won't be clumsy tomorrow's morning..
(kuar jln2 je pn tp cm nk dating btol2..ahhaa..:D)

p/s:-to my bestie,hope u r fine lah..rarely got chance to talk like before..hmm..neway,all da best la lalink for the test n final..:)

new look..:)

new look..hehe..
after i search the google engine n keep trying the template again n again..
at last this is what i got..:p
i know its a bit not comfortable for the eyes..
n its a bit difficult to read..hee..sorry guys.
dun know y i love black n love for layout.
juz like my fs..hee..:D

so maybe i will change the layout again after this

hee..
if i already bored with this one..:)
but for now,i juz love this one so much...:D

owh..suddenly i post two entry a day..
see??i'm so bored these few days..hmm...
dun know what to do till every quizes i found on any page i will do it..haha..:p

neway,enjoy ur life k..
every single moments is a give.:)

edited:-
oppss..the next day i changed the blacky love with this soledad teddy.hee...this teddy doesn''t represent anything.it juz that i want a teddy layout n this is the only one can be describe ok that i found..:p

adoih la~~

shut3...
i hate today's internet lah..
first i can't open my fb since last nite till this evening..
then in the evening,i can open my fb..
i'm so happy..:D
but..!!
i can't open some other important page for me..urrff..

ok fine..then at least i can the fb to chat with fren a bit..

then my house blackout while i'm watching ADAMAYA..urrffff...
juz now the electricity has back but i can't opan my fb again..!!
arrgghh..what happen to this celcom broadband huh???
keep playing around with me..totally hate today's internet..
(maen plh2 lak mne leh bkk..pastu maen tkr2..skt hati.!!)

after all luckily my blog still can be open all the time.hmm..
thats the only lucky thing happen to me i guess even the lift played me around when i want to back home it suddenly won't work.aaaaaa...
while i went down i totally work normally.so then i have to climb the 10th floor stairs..T_T

so tired already..everything not right..wanna rest by playing the games...daaaa..

p/s:-hopefully no more internet's playing on me after this.haishh...enough for today n forever..dun u ever dare become like this again...plz lah..

what happen to my fb??

waaaaaa....

i really hate this la..

y i can't open my fb?

not even the welcom page of fb..all i got was service error..

if i can open it from search anywhere first,still can't login..!!!

waaa....!!!

y all these happen to me????

really2 need help..huk3..

tensed...tensed...tensed.....;((

need real memories back

Allahuakbar...
thats all i can say...this world totally so small..
right now,i'm so ashamed with sum1..
urff...how could u still remember all those memories back in primary school so details??
while i can't even remember ur name..oh god~~

these people make me laugh so hard.
but also make me shocked as one of them is 'his' cousin.
which make me more shock when he said i like 'him'...how did he know eh?
plus he said he always imagine me n 'him' are together since primary school till now..
OMG~~
thats all i can say now..
this make me open 'his' folder again..uhh..it hurt me..

truly, i still love 'him'.a lots.. n missing 'him' so much..*sigh*
hate to admit it as 'he' already love other girl right now..
n i also trying to forget all these feelings for u lah my dear..ohh....can't change the name to call u..haishh...

after all,i still love all ur pics la.hahaha...it makes me smile..a lots...:)
owh...there's only sweet memories i can remember right now...dush3...*slap myself*

enough of that..now i juz wanna feel all the happiness..:D
plz3 ya Allah..i want to be happy. i want my peace n my everything..hehe..
(amt tamak)

owh..late already..gud nite all...hope to have sweetssss dreammssss tonite..:)

owh..plishh

my blog,its up to me lah wanna say about anything..
if u dun like it,back off plz...hmm

i'm out of mood..
totally messed up these few days..
tired with all people's behaviour..stop plz..stop hurting me..plz....

i dun know lah..i tried not to hurt any1 but still others will keep hurting me again n again..
fine..
if u like it,then let it be...just do it..
BUT...!!!

remember,i'll never forgive u unless u ask for it..then i'll consider to frogive u
i may not remember all the things u have done to me but i won't forget the pain n the way u make my day become chaos..

hmm..wanna rest.
today i feel have been sooooo stupid as i have been lied again.by someone i really care n never expect it..haishh..but i dun mad at u juz shocked n a bit touched by ur action...i'm waiting for the explanation k..
p/s:-emo2 lg..haishh..sorry to all~~

yank

yank,coba kau jujur padaku

yank,foto siapa di dompetmu

yank,kok kamu diam membisu

sayang,jawab atau aku pergi sayang

c/o:aku xmahu bicara sebelum kau cerita semuanya.

apa mau mu siapa dirinya

tak betah bila ada yang lain

jangan hubungi ku lagi

ini bisa jadi yang terakhir

aku ngerti kamu

kau tak ngerti aku

sekarang atau tak selamanya

yank,jangan kira ku tak tahu

yank,tak mudah kau bodohiku

yank,tolong dengarkan lah aku

tapi sayang,masih pantaskah kau ku panggil sayang....

repeat c/o

saat mu mau bicara dan ku akan cerita semuanya

apa mau ku siapa dirinya

kerna memang tak ada yang lain

terus hubungiku lagi

jangan bilang ini yang terakhir

aku ngerti kamu

kamu ngerti aku

aku sayang kamu selamanya

repeat c/o~~

wee...my favourite song for the past 1 month..:p
can't stop listen to it again n again everyday..well..this song is so nice with the music n actually i love 2 part only in this song..hee..my kembar know where n y..wakakka..n they will say i'm ridiculous to love it just by that part.lalalalalaa~~it juz me..:D

ok..nite all~~
p/s:-dun know what else to do at home.huu...duit pn tarak nih..adeh...:]

bad day~

y eh recently my days always bad days..T_T
i feel like crying but i keep it right inside my heart.i control my emotion so much
but today..
i failed again..
n to the worst the tears dropped totally not in the right place..urff..i'm so embarrased actually
but since i can't think properly n don't know what to do at the moment..
*sigh*
i'm having lots of fobia actually..which one of them is being LOST!!!

yes i know for other people i shouldn't be like that.
being too panic n everything
but seriously no one understand how i feel today.
with all the chaos n everything happen i can't hold that tears anymore..:(

but then millions thanks to my bestie n also mr is for helping me out from that situations.
sorry is coz i can't hear whatever u're saying anymore at that moment.huu..but thanks for everything.
to my bestie,thanks a lots for calming me down..huu..seriously at that moment i only can think for getting help from u..huu..see u always help me..but i...*sigh* never done anything for u lah laling..sorry...

hmm..so right now i want to rest..so tired after 2days straight has been choas...:)

p/s:-neway, i totally enjoyed the movie yesterday..iron man 2 besh..!!:D

giving up~

dun ask me y..
coz i dun know the answer..
all i know right now,i already give up..

everything i do,there must be wrong somewhere or the entire thing were wrong..*sigh*
i dun even have any1 to tell or share what i feel..
the only thing i have right now are my blog n fb..
but still i have to control every single word as it will be misunderstood or maybe taking too serious for what i wrote here..
urff..can't any1 understand that the moment i type the entry,i never think it is right or wrong.all i know i'm typing here to release my tensed or what i feel for that moment.
i repeat,for THAT MOMENT ONLY..!!
not after that.
yes i admit my entry always use harsh words..coz that is me.
the voice that speak from my heart which i do not know whether it is influence by syaitan or emotional only..i really dun know lah..!!
so plz lah dun take serious anything here except i use the word,i repeat or i really mean it or anything else which have same meaning..

so right now,plz lah..as i always not taking seriously anything u guys make fun at me,so plz do the same for me coz i'm a normal human too..have feeling which maybe more sensitive than others..(always,if i take it to heart like touching2 it won't be long as i easily forgive people)

now,i would like to say sorry for each words or anything i did that hurt u or anything i did inappropiately,forgive me k..coz i'm totally a worst girl,a worst fren and also a horrible at making anything...:((

p/s:-yes i'm so down right now but i can;t say anything.yet i know when i type it here,others might think else..*sigh*whatever....i need my tranquility back now..plz ya Allah~~