Happy New Year 2014

Just wanna wish Happy New Year 2014 everyone..!

Say hello to 2014 and lets close 2013 properly..:)

As usual, do some new target to achieve in 2014 and also do review back on 2013.

Hoping everything is just well for everyone.

Need to finish reportS for meeting this Saturday.oh i means the presentation..

how i hate it..pray for me so that everything is OK and i will not get scold.again.. =_=!

p/s: Salary oh salary.i need u today la..why so late?? TT____TT

1st Trip

Hello there..!
eh,de orang nak bukak my blog yang dah berhabuk n bersawang ni lagi ke?
haha..xkisah la..

just wanna say that i'm going to have my first trip with the company to Singapore..!
yeay..! batak giler plak rase..=_=
even just going by bus but still i'm so excited now.
our trip is tonite. 12am.. :)
but since not getting salary yet, so no shopping for me.. :|
i don't even get changed to go there.
owh.i only prepared myself with foods, new shoes and new bag.
eh,not yet prepared pun.i still don't packed my things yet.
everyone here say i'm not normal..:p

well, after works need to rush buy few things and pack my things.
then back at office waiting for the bus.

today totally doing nothing.
i'm so sleepy already thats why i end up typing craps here.. :D

neway, I started to miss my bestie now.oppss..jgn perasan lebih2..hahaha..:p

ok.got to go..:)

p/s: I'm not mad at u before but now yes i am.in fact i start to hate u already.get it??

mood yg xbrp ok

Hai semua.. Still raya kan?tapi tahun ni sy xde pegi openhouse pun.. Mood xbrp ok skrg.sian my blog.mood xok baru ingat nak ingat kan? Entry xde motif lagi.huhu.. Neway,tahun ni raya yang paling ntah pape. Raya khamis so selasa amek cuti dah.smpi kul 10 lbh. Wat kje2 then jumpe si dia tuk cari brg2 jap he. Pastu bz kt umah smpi mlm raya ntah wat pe xingat dah..=_= Pagi raya xpegi solat raya pun.duk umah je.haishh.. Then dah tgh hri g umah sedare dkt2 smpi ptg. Raya kedua duk umah smpi ptg sbb xjd kuar dgn die.. Ptg kuar mkn cendol dgn dia.dah tu je. Pagi raya ketiga dah menggila pegi kelantan plak..T____T dah habis sume planning raya ku.. Kul 6.30pgi hari selasa bru sampai umah sewa then kul 8dah msuk.kje.. Mmg keja giler.. Dah tu je raya tahun ni.plan nk jalan dgn si dia lesap trus. Pasni xtau la akan jumpe lg ke x since kami dah begini..haishhh.. Sorry bestie sbb skrg sy mmg tgh sedih sgt2. Dah try senyum n happy mcm awk nak tpi..temporary je blh.so sorry..:-(:-( Sorry jugak dkt si dia 4everything...take care..

Just give me a reason~

Hye3..
Now its Ramadhan again.time surely passed by so fast right?
Last year during ramadhan i was struggling so hard with my FYP. Now,i'm still struggling but with other things-works.
I never thought it'll be totally different from study time-even though i'm still learning lots and lots of things here..!!*phewww*
Whatever it is, keep fighting and may Allah ease everything..:)

owh..now just love this song.
Just give me a reason by Pink.

Right from the startYou were a thiefYou stole my heartAnd I your willing victimI let you see the parts of meThat weren't all that prettyAnd with every touch you fixed them

Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, ohThings you never say to me, oh, ohTell me that you've had enoughOf our love, our love

Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsWe're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again

I'm sorry I don't understandWhere all of this is coming fromI thought that we were fine(Oh, we had everything)Your head is running wild againMy dear we still have everythin'And it's all in your mind(Yeah, but this is happenin')

You've been havin' real bad dreams, oh, ohYou used to lie so close to me, oh, ohThere's nothing more than empty sheetsBetween our love, our loveOh, our love, our love

Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againI never stoppedYou're still written in the scars on my heartYou're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again

Oh, tear ducts and rustI'll fix it for usWe're collecting dustBut our love's enoughYou're holding it inYou're pouring a drinkNo nothing is as bad as it seemsWe'll come clean

Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again

Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again

Oh, we can learn to love againOh, we can learn to love againOh, oh, that we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again

1st leave~~

last weekend went to parit buntar for kak shida's n abg akmal's wedding.. it was so fun and full of happiness..:) congrats dear may both of u stay happy together till the last breathe.. neway,today amek leave. actually last friday pun amek half day.then pegi umah tiero sume.. today supposedly going out with bestie or my brother. but suddenly both cancelled already. so here i am all alone at home with nothing to do..*sigh* just download few songs and keep playing them. totally bored..hurmm.. list of songs for now: 1. when i was your man-bruno mars 2. bukan dia tapi aku-judika 3. harus terpisah-cakra khan 4. setengah mati merindu-judika 5. rembau most wanted-w.a.r.i.s 6. light-ellie goulding 7. come and get it-selena gomez tetbe lupe lagu laen.hehe..tu jela wat mase ni.. ehh..lagu banyak sedih2 je kan.xdela sedih pe pn..saje dengar lagu2 ni..:)

losing us

Im so sad. I loose him already.i cant pretend to be his bestfren coz i have to accept it if he has some1 else. Now my bestie is far away from me too. everythng is hurting me. Ive seen us in my niece.it hurt me. B,i really need u. My bestie,take care there..

endlessly

All your songs keep playing in my head. Worst of all when i want to sleep,i heard your voice singing all those lullaby. But this time it only make my tears keep running down. It hurt.too much.. If only you can give me another chance..*sigh* Actually i want to post lyric of a song that he sang for me. Song which decribe his feeling when we were bestfriend. Endlessly-B4-4.. :'( i really miss u n need u.. This weekend i attend 2 weddings. It hurt me knowing i already loose u. Those dreams now is only me.alone..

update dri hp mmg skt ht

Sekarang update guna hp je.tu pun jarang on9. Pastu xpndi sgt gne hp ni.nak enter wat new line kat bwh pun xjadi2.haha.xpsal2 update dlm html je n korg bce pun dlm 1perenggan jek..:-p typo lg la.cursor ntah ke mane2.tensen seyh! Pape pn skrg tgh xsht. Mental n fizikal..truly.. Kali ni dugaan nye besar.hilang bestfren n boyfren sekaligus. Seksa gle rase.ntah ble2 tetbe dh nangis..haish..then keep terjge tgh mlm mcm bese kul 3 or 4 sbb dh t.bese tgu die blik.. Jgn 1mlm aku mamai t.jge trus col die sudah. Masak aku nnt.dh la dibenci.nnt bertambah2 plak dibenci sbb xsdr dri. Erk.mntk2 jgn la.walaupn rndu ni Allah je yg tau.sbrlah hati.,.

15march 2013

The end. Thats all.as simple as that my heart turned into pieces i.m truly sorry. There is nothing else i could say to u. Looks like happily ever after is totally beyond my reach after all.again. Memories remains eventhough its taking my life n my strength. I just praying u will be well without me anymore as i know u will. Take care love..

still after...

Still after 1month, unemployed. After few months, sometimes still remember. After years, i still missed both of them. After lots of things n time passed by, i dreamed about someone. Sadly,it make me hurt. Dear my ex-brother, i missed all ur kindness. Truly. But things will never be da same. I just hope we can still be an old friend 1 day. Or at least let me know the real reason, the reason for not even smile to each other, For not even say hi from distant. I missed our beautiful friendship. Dec 2006- July 2009...

tanda2 gangguan

tadi xsdap hati sket..
then saje google2 few things..
dulu2 pernah dengar few simptom gangguan tapi xtau details..
kalo bace yang post ustaz love ni,
saya rase dalam 4-5 tanda tu de kat saya..*erkk....!gulp!*
i means mimpi de 2, yg dlam jaga tu yang risau...

ya Allah..jauhkan la hamba-Mu ini dari segala perkara yang tidak di ingini
dan tenangkan la hati ku untuk menghadapi peperiksaan ini ya Allah..
aamiin3...

memang xleh percaya n xkate percaya 100% but more than 70% saya lebih kepada risau..
huhu..
dugaan3..

programming oh programming,please3 be good to me..! :(

the exam started

at last my first paper for last final exam(hopefully,aamiin3) came..

phewww...

as expected, the questions were totally danggggggggg...!

yes..i left out 2 questions.

i mean literally left it out...=_=

it make me sad ok..

i can only pray that i will pass this paper...aamiin3..

the same goes to my friends..:)

ok..lets forget about it and start to study for my next paper..

pray for us ek..

thanks...

p/s: cant wait to meet my dear...:) 

losing me?

I think--I think when it's all over,

It just comes back in flashes, you know?

It's like a kaleidoscope of memories.

It just all comes back. But he never does.

I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen.

It's not really anything he said or anything he did,

It was the feeling that came along with it.

And the crazy thing is I don't know if I'm ever gonna feel that way again.

But I don't know if I should.

I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright.

But I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?

Maybe he knew that when he saw me.

I guess I just lost my balance.

I think that the worst part of it all wasn't losing him.

It was losing me

i'm losing myself.

haha..i'm getting crazy.inside.

i really wanna cry hardly but then my mind stop me.

why should i cry for him?

maybe its not just about him

its the memories that tearing me apart.

the feelings he gave me is killing me

from inside and slowly..how do i find the cure?

wondering~~

pressure~~

sekarang minggu final.
tapi paper saya start 9hb, hbis 17hb..
lambat giler...huhuuuu..
sekarang xsihat.demam sket.
owh.bukan sebab study tapi sebab banyak sangat tido..huhu
xde mood nak study..

erm..regarding previous entry, mule2 rase tenang tapi rini suddenly lost.
saya send 1 msj pnjg gle kat die.
mntk maaf 4 everythng,halalkn mkn mnum n everything bla3...
xlme pastu rase lost giler.

ok.seriously i still missed him.
too much actually.
all this while xpernah couple lama macam dengan die.
barang2 die bagi seriously wat saya sedih.
xpernah sangka akan betol2 putus dengan die.
yela.i mean dah selesa dengan die,family die.
dah rapat sangat..macam family sendri.
maybe i miss kasih sayang family die yang xpernah anggap saya outsider.
in fact lagi banyak share masalah dengan ummi die dari my own family.
saya sangat rindu semua tu.

rase takut untuk hilang semua tu tapi memang saya dah hilang diorang pun...
sedih sangat.
maybe i need to take 1 step backward jugak dari this someone coz i'm totally not ready 4 anything.
i'm still thinking n missing my Mr K which i knew its totally wrong.
but how can i denied what my heart feel?
no one know how hard it is for me now..
my bestie ask me to do istikarah..
i think that will do..
semoga hati ku tenang menghadapi semua ini..aamiin3...

i'm not strong to face all this tests.but i still believe Allah is always with me... :)

one step away

i'm taking 1 step away from u since last night.
i hope this is the right thing coz i don't want to hurt myself by faking my reactions when u told me about that girl. i'm being selfish as u did the same for me right?
i hope this is the best for us.
oppss...there's no more us..we're totally different from each other now
but then i still felt calm and relieve..
alhamdulillah.. :)

i knew you were trouble~~
this song keep playing in my head.
hahaaa..lots of songs played in my head lately since that night
but this one is the current one with "aku yang tersakiti"

ohh...i also took one step closer to someone..
ehhh..no.he did that not me actually..*wink3*
just one step closer not anything ok?
i'm not ready for anything yet.
so he do understand..
too well actually..:p

i'm not opening my broken heart to anyone coz i don't even knew where my heart is..
its everywhere i guess...
hohoh...lots more things to go for my final exam.
i'm praying my success for this exam..please3 i want to pass each and every paper i took this semester..
may Allah ease..

got to go~~

first entry 2013

bertahta di hati-cover by shila


tadi layan video laen sebenarnya..
tengok shila cover aku yang tersakiti..
memang feeling gler die nyanyi...



sedih tetbe..huhuu..

ehh..ape sedih2 ni jannah?
its new year la..kena mulakan hidup baru,right?
so mari senyum ye..:)
neway,its officially more than 2 weeks since that day
n tipu giler kalo kate saya happy dengan pe yang jadi
after everything that i've sacrificed for him.
tapi dah tersurat ini yang akan jadi kan..
jadi saya kena terima dengan hati yang terbuka..:)

owh..final exam dah nak start tapi saya x get ready langsung lagi
asyik jalan2 jek..:p
so,mari start study..
study ke stado ek?hehe..
doakan kami semua ye...

p/s: start tahun baru je dah dapat dugaan..xpela.ujian kecik je ni..keep smiling yep... ;)