losing us

Im so sad. I loose him already.i cant pretend to be his bestfren coz i have to accept it if he has some1 else. Now my bestie is far away from me too. everythng is hurting me. Ive seen us in my niece.it hurt me. B,i really need u. My bestie,take care there..

endlessly

All your songs keep playing in my head. Worst of all when i want to sleep,i heard your voice singing all those lullaby. But this time it only make my tears keep running down. It hurt.too much.. If only you can give me another chance..*sigh* Actually i want to post lyric of a song that he sang for me. Song which decribe his feeling when we were bestfriend. Endlessly-B4-4.. :'( i really miss u n need u.. This weekend i attend 2 weddings. It hurt me knowing i already loose u. Those dreams now is only me.alone..

update dri hp mmg skt ht

Sekarang update guna hp je.tu pun jarang on9. Pastu xpndi sgt gne hp ni.nak enter wat new line kat bwh pun xjadi2.haha.xpsal2 update dlm html je n korg bce pun dlm 1perenggan jek..:-p typo lg la.cursor ntah ke mane2.tensen seyh! Pape pn skrg tgh xsht. Mental n fizikal..truly.. Kali ni dugaan nye besar.hilang bestfren n boyfren sekaligus. Seksa gle rase.ntah ble2 tetbe dh nangis..haish..then keep terjge tgh mlm mcm bese kul 3 or 4 sbb dh t.bese tgu die blik.. Jgn 1mlm aku mamai t.jge trus col die sudah. Masak aku nnt.dh la dibenci.nnt bertambah2 plak dibenci sbb xsdr dri. Erk.mntk2 jgn la.walaupn rndu ni Allah je yg tau.sbrlah hati.,.

15march 2013

The end. Thats all.as simple as that my heart turned into pieces i.m truly sorry. There is nothing else i could say to u. Looks like happily ever after is totally beyond my reach after all.again. Memories remains eventhough its taking my life n my strength. I just praying u will be well without me anymore as i know u will. Take care love..

still after...

Still after 1month, unemployed. After few months, sometimes still remember. After years, i still missed both of them. After lots of things n time passed by, i dreamed about someone. Sadly,it make me hurt. Dear my ex-brother, i missed all ur kindness. Truly. But things will never be da same. I just hope we can still be an old friend 1 day. Or at least let me know the real reason, the reason for not even smile to each other, For not even say hi from distant. I missed our beautiful friendship. Dec 2006- July 2009...

tanda2 gangguan

tadi xsdap hati sket..
then saje google2 few things..
dulu2 pernah dengar few simptom gangguan tapi xtau details..
kalo bace yang post ustaz love ni,
saya rase dalam 4-5 tanda tu de kat saya..*erkk....!gulp!*
i means mimpi de 2, yg dlam jaga tu yang risau...

ya Allah..jauhkan la hamba-Mu ini dari segala perkara yang tidak di ingini
dan tenangkan la hati ku untuk menghadapi peperiksaan ini ya Allah..
aamiin3...

memang xleh percaya n xkate percaya 100% but more than 70% saya lebih kepada risau..
huhu..
dugaan3..

programming oh programming,please3 be good to me..! :(

the exam started

at last my first paper for last final exam(hopefully,aamiin3) came..

phewww...

as expected, the questions were totally danggggggggg...!

yes..i left out 2 questions.

i mean literally left it out...=_=

it make me sad ok..

i can only pray that i will pass this paper...aamiin3..

the same goes to my friends..:)

ok..lets forget about it and start to study for my next paper..

pray for us ek..

thanks...

p/s: cant wait to meet my dear...:) 

losing me?

I think--I think when it's all over,

It just comes back in flashes, you know?

It's like a kaleidoscope of memories.

It just all comes back. But he never does.

I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen.

It's not really anything he said or anything he did,

It was the feeling that came along with it.

And the crazy thing is I don't know if I'm ever gonna feel that way again.

But I don't know if I should.

I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright.

But I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?

Maybe he knew that when he saw me.

I guess I just lost my balance.

I think that the worst part of it all wasn't losing him.

It was losing me

i'm losing myself.

haha..i'm getting crazy.inside.

i really wanna cry hardly but then my mind stop me.

why should i cry for him?

maybe its not just about him

its the memories that tearing me apart.

the feelings he gave me is killing me

from inside and slowly..how do i find the cure?

wondering~~