stop.plz

ya Allah...what wrong with him nowadays??
i try to be +ve that u dun have crdt to reply my msgs.ok fine
i try to be +ve when u on9 n suddenly offline to me...ok..
its fifa world cup n u once told me u want to watch them..still be ok..
i thought u are so busy with the work till u dun hve time to talk to me..i still can accept it.
then..
i heard about ur schoolmates's accident which one of them passed away.
so i thought u r so sad u dun wan hve any mood to talk with anybody..
so i tried to understand n gve u some space...
but
when i read ur comments on those photos with others,u cn laugh n joking with others happily..
like nothing wrong with u..

so tell me.should i still think positive bout you??
i dun know what else to do or say right now.
i can't even tell anybody how i feel coz u prohibited me to tell anyone about us..
y??coz i'm juz ur 5th 'wives',itsn't it??
or maybe i have been thrown away from the list...*sigh*
it hard to pretend i'm fine n still happy with all these things..it really hard u know????

i really dun know how to get rid of these feelings..
:((
i hate myself for being like this..
but i dun know what to do..
hmmmm

*beb,i totally agree with u juz now but i really dun know what to do to forget him..so sorry beb for keep disappointing u...haishh....*

p/s:-all these things make me crazy~~looks like my heart getting weaker not stronger...silly me..!!