pressure~~

sekarang minggu final.
tapi paper saya start 9hb, hbis 17hb..
lambat giler...huhuuuu..
sekarang xsihat.demam sket.
owh.bukan sebab study tapi sebab banyak sangat tido..huhu
xde mood nak study..

erm..regarding previous entry, mule2 rase tenang tapi rini suddenly lost.
saya send 1 msj pnjg gle kat die.
mntk maaf 4 everythng,halalkn mkn mnum n everything bla3...
xlme pastu rase lost giler.

ok.seriously i still missed him.
too much actually.
all this while xpernah couple lama macam dengan die.
barang2 die bagi seriously wat saya sedih.
xpernah sangka akan betol2 putus dengan die.
yela.i mean dah selesa dengan die,family die.
dah rapat sangat..macam family sendri.
maybe i miss kasih sayang family die yang xpernah anggap saya outsider.
in fact lagi banyak share masalah dengan ummi die dari my own family.
saya sangat rindu semua tu.

rase takut untuk hilang semua tu tapi memang saya dah hilang diorang pun...
sedih sangat.
maybe i need to take 1 step backward jugak dari this someone coz i'm totally not ready 4 anything.
i'm still thinking n missing my Mr K which i knew its totally wrong.
but how can i denied what my heart feel?
no one know how hard it is for me now..
my bestie ask me to do istikarah..
i think that will do..
semoga hati ku tenang menghadapi semua ini..aamiin3...

i'm not strong to face all this tests.but i still believe Allah is always with me... :)