Bila stressed

Muke selekeh.sila abaikan

Bila stressed,jerawat pun tumbuh macam cendawan lepas hujan...
Oh my..!
List of stressing works are back.
Read workS.
I means projectS.
Sausages ohh sausages.please be kind to me..

They say my new 'baby' is here.
Yup.. 600 ringgit baby.
Luckily not 2k baby.
I hope this new 'baby' will stay healthy till end of my time here..
Oh..its kenwood food processor i means..

Till next time.
P/s: update using my real 1month old baby..:)

3rd meeting

Today is my 3rd meeting here with my boss.
well, 2nd meeting i was 'kena' so badly la.
that time it was too bad to remember.
so this morning i was trembling when i step in the meeting room.
my hand went all cold like corpse..!
i'm so scared to present all those projects.

as i already knew their mood not so good today so i practice my words abit yesterday.
because last time i 'kena' so bad when i talk too much with honesty..=__=
silly me.
so today i talk few words only to protect myself.
i was the 3rd person to present.
for 2 people before me the boss just sit on the chair.
when its my turn, both boss come to the slide to see clearly..
=__=

luckily not much i 'kena' today.
so i'm a bit relieved..phewwww...
for now only.
starting next week i'm totally done.so many projects need to do research.
i'm starting to be dizzy.

anyway, the boss did mentioned about lower profit for 2013.
that just like giving us hint the bonus is totally affected too.. :|
i need them la..so much tau.but still i dont know if i will get it or not..huhuu.
praying for the best..! aamiin...:)

pressure~~

sekarang minggu final.
tapi paper saya start 9hb, hbis 17hb..
lambat giler...huhuuuu..
sekarang xsihat.demam sket.
owh.bukan sebab study tapi sebab banyak sangat tido..huhu
xde mood nak study..

erm..regarding previous entry, mule2 rase tenang tapi rini suddenly lost.
saya send 1 msj pnjg gle kat die.
mntk maaf 4 everythng,halalkn mkn mnum n everything bla3...
xlme pastu rase lost giler.

ok.seriously i still missed him.
too much actually.
all this while xpernah couple lama macam dengan die.
barang2 die bagi seriously wat saya sedih.
xpernah sangka akan betol2 putus dengan die.
yela.i mean dah selesa dengan die,family die.
dah rapat sangat..macam family sendri.
maybe i miss kasih sayang family die yang xpernah anggap saya outsider.
in fact lagi banyak share masalah dengan ummi die dari my own family.
saya sangat rindu semua tu.

rase takut untuk hilang semua tu tapi memang saya dah hilang diorang pun...
sedih sangat.
maybe i need to take 1 step backward jugak dari this someone coz i'm totally not ready 4 anything.
i'm still thinking n missing my Mr K which i knew its totally wrong.
but how can i denied what my heart feel?
no one know how hard it is for me now..
my bestie ask me to do istikarah..
i think that will do..
semoga hati ku tenang menghadapi semua ini..aamiin3...

i'm not strong to face all this tests.but i still believe Allah is always with me... :)

one step away

i'm taking 1 step away from u since last night.
i hope this is the right thing coz i don't want to hurt myself by faking my reactions when u told me about that girl. i'm being selfish as u did the same for me right?
i hope this is the best for us.
oppss...there's no more us..we're totally different from each other now
but then i still felt calm and relieve..
alhamdulillah.. :)

i knew you were trouble~~
this song keep playing in my head.
hahaaa..lots of songs played in my head lately since that night
but this one is the current one with "aku yang tersakiti"

ohh...i also took one step closer to someone..
ehhh..no.he did that not me actually..*wink3*
just one step closer not anything ok?
i'm not ready for anything yet.
so he do understand..
too well actually..:p

i'm not opening my broken heart to anyone coz i don't even knew where my heart is..
its everywhere i guess...
hohoh...lots more things to go for my final exam.
i'm praying my success for this exam..please3 i want to pass each and every paper i took this semester..
may Allah ease..

got to go~~

first entry 2013

bertahta di hati-cover by shila


tadi layan video laen sebenarnya..
tengok shila cover aku yang tersakiti..
memang feeling gler die nyanyi...



sedih tetbe..huhuu..

ehh..ape sedih2 ni jannah?
its new year la..kena mulakan hidup baru,right?
so mari senyum ye..:)
neway,its officially more than 2 weeks since that day
n tipu giler kalo kate saya happy dengan pe yang jadi
after everything that i've sacrificed for him.
tapi dah tersurat ini yang akan jadi kan..
jadi saya kena terima dengan hati yang terbuka..:)

owh..final exam dah nak start tapi saya x get ready langsung lagi
asyik jalan2 jek..:p
so,mari start study..
study ke stado ek?hehe..
doakan kami semua ye...

p/s: start tahun baru je dah dapat dugaan..xpela.ujian kecik je ni..keep smiling yep... ;)

31/12/12

tarikh terakhir wat tahun 2012.
bagi saya tarikh ni xde pape sangat pun.
tapi why not tarikh ni di jadikan satu titik permulaan yang baru tuk kite kan?
reasons:
-dah nak tukar tahun baru, so mulakan hidup baru..
-tahun 2013 umur pun meningkat so hidup pun makin singkat.
-insyaAllah habis exam hujung bulan 1 ni,nak start cari kerja dah..so yes,biggest changes in my life.
oh..how i don't like the interviewing things..

so yes.banyak perubahan kan..
ok la..
nak start study final..
lots3 more to go...!
all da best for our last final exam...insyaAllah.. :)

alamak my story la.!

last week or week before tu,tetbe rajin taip citer and sent kat blogger sorang ni.
ok blog die memang famous.
ramai giler reader..
xsangka langsung my story akan di publishkan.
gagagagaaa....
sumpah rase lawak plus malu biler bukak blog die.
yela,cte merepek giler even memang kisah benar pun.
ye saya xtipu pun citer tu ok.
memang betol2 jadi pun dulu..

ok..luperkan jap sal tuh.
esok nak kena hantar softbound thesis.
giler my draft memang berlambak2 kena tukar...!!
rase nak nangis tapi buat jugak la..

hantar yang betol2 penting..
yang chapter laen kena struggle wat malam ni..
ye masih di library..
lapar and pening sebab kerja banyak giler..

ok la.mau sambung wat keje..see ya...

time is running out..!!

tensed.
down.
sad.

this friday is the presentation day.

nothing finish yet.
assignments,tests.
i'm gonna be crazy..

pray for us please....

day oh day

result rejected.
kena tambah lab work last minute..
GC kesayangan habis gas.
lab assistant xde di saat2 ini..

what a day....TT___TT


hati gundah gulana.
si dia?unknown status....
:'(

blog = my babbling site

just so u know.i am a bad girl.
i write and speak whatever in my mind at that particular time.
and in my blog i did and always say lots and lots of things which i NEVER post it or say it somewhere else.

bear in mind i always reveal my dark side of thoughts HERE.
just in here.
my emotion too.
that's the main reason i kept my blog private to my family and random friends.
that is why i don't include my blog in google's search engine.
that is why most of my entries will label craps.
coz i'm babbling all the times here....
so if anybody(i know lots of you) that ever crossed and read my entry
and then happened to 'terasa'with my harsh words, i'm truly apologized to all of you.
in that case,i suggest never ever read my entry anymore cause it will hurt you later on.

i'm not good at words and speaking.
so my words normally will turns out to be harsh to most people
well, this is me.
and here is the only place i 'maki hamun' or 'merepek' through out my bad times.
almost everything i felt at the moments,i post it here.

so as I don't want to hurt anyone,i might be private-ing my blog.again.
or i might revert back most of my entries into draft.
that will be safe,right?

to those who didn't like it or probably hate me,i accept that.
i know its my fault.
but just a reminder again,read from the title of my blog and to the descriptions i stated above before proceed to my  entries here..
TQ and sorry again..

p/s: as i say,i'm not good in words in fact i'm terrible with it and that's the main reason i don't respond to yours. but please don't try to contact me at this crucial period.i tend to get annoyed or angry without any reasons..thx for your consideration....:)

my heart beating faster...!!

7th dec nak present seminar..

in front of 5 panels and few friends.

the problem is..........

i'm the first presenter...!!

dannnnggggggggg.....

i felt like fainting in the lecturer hall when the list came out..

*gulp3*

how la???i'm so nervous...

lots3 of things in my mind now..

my FYP which suddenly need to add one more method = 1 more analysis form before

but the problem is i have to extract new sample,

need more chemical

n more time to do all those things..

editing up all those result is not even done yet but then i need to add more lab works..

T_______T

can i cry now??

sob3...

need soother..

need lots of things in this tiny and compact time range..

hurmmmmmmmmmm......

p/s: to someone,i knew the feeling.i'd felt like that before.just don't think about it and stop comparing.it'll be much3 better..:)

3rd time, 2nd time and first time

right now,i'm at 24hours room at PTAR 1..
well,today actually my third time stay up at the library.
second time alone here with those strangers of course
and first time i stay at the 24 hours room since before this i stay at the top level of the library..hehe
oh..don't assume anything.
i used the top level because my references books are all there not because i want to stay away from people..:p
but today,i choose to stay at the 24 hours room because its a little bit less cold than in the PTAR..
here its cold too but i think it should be fine as the exit/entrance door is near so if i can't take it i can go outside and take a walk for a while right?

i stayed here because i want to start doing my seminar draft but.....
i'm lost suddenly.
my brain can't digest the words and sentences..*sigh*
i need to finish up my first chapter at least since i got full tight schedule next week...T__T

so right now i just type 2 sentences..
aiyoo....its 2 hours already la jannah..!
anyway,the students in this room is getting lesser than before..
err..i hope not everyone going back before 6am.
if not,i have to change my place into the cold PTAR...!!=_=

keep being positive jannah..u can do this..chaiyuk2..!:)

entry tertangguh ke?

woot3..
dah lama xmerapu meraban kat blog kesayangan nih..
since internet mengharap wifi free n time cuti ni dapat la gune lagi kan..
start sume orang dah balik,kem salam la nak gune..=_=
neway,niat di hati nak update byk3 sgt benda..
tapi xde mood nak menaip panjang2 n susun citer..
xpe.bukan de orang bacer pun blog ni..hohooo

entry2 yang sebenarnya dalam list nak wat:
1.trip ke terengganu...
2.perjalanan sem akhir
3. progress xde progress pape pun FYP
4.luahan perasaan perah santan jap

hahah..yg ke 4 xde pape..merepek je lebih..:p
tu jela kot entry yang sebenarnye dah niat nak wat tapi xterbuat sebab lappy probs,internet cam harem,pic yang xtransfer langsung dari hp plus masa yang memang la xberapa nak banyak untuk bersuka ria..=_=

so entry hari ni nak letak lastest schedule.
banyak sangat keje+trip+assignment nak wat tapi di sebabkan diri ini semakin nyanyuk,asyik la missed sane sini...=_=

5hb 11- test CSC+discussion method of ICP+inject sample kat GC
6hb 11-lab report packaging
7hb 11-assignment CSC
8hb 11-run ICP
9hb 11-full info for video packaging
10hb-12hb 11-preparation n rakaman video hi-tea
12hb 11-full dialog/sentences for video packaging
13hb,15hb n 16hb 11-rakam video packaging

ok..tu je untuk this 2 weeks dulu ye..laen2 xdapat nak catch up lagi..=_=
tapi tarikh2 di atas xmasuk lagi few assignments yang xconfirm lagi wat masa ni plus test2 yang maybe akan di buat pada minggu cuti awal muharam or the other week..
hurmmm..serabut betol otak pk sume2 ni..

oh ye..
kami de 2 trip lagi which akan jatuh pada akhir bulan ni or minggu pertama bulan 12.
7hb 12-presentation seminar
21hb 12-final presentation FYP..!!

ohh goshhh...masa sangat2 la xcukup..
hurmm...no more movie la jawab nye..
cik aju....xdapat jalan2 dengan ko dah la kalo gini...huuuuuu...
hidup yang sangat disaster....T_____T

ok la nak tenangkan diri n check balik mana kerja kena wat dulu..soobbbss3..
dah la CSC or C++ ni xpaham pe benda pun...camne nak test ni??

4 days 3 nights

short entry.
less than two hours,
gonna be away from my lappy for 4 days n 3 nights..
where to?





will be updated later on..



p/s:- so tired now..how to stand that 7hours of journey??

7th semester

lamanya xupdate... bukan de org ksah pun....:p
well2,,dh 4 minggu jgak sem ni start.
sume busy menyiapkan FYP masing2..
tapi...
saya je xbergerak sebab banyak sangat masalah2 sampai saya xde hati nak wat benda alah tu..=_=

dah la makin lama makin tragis je benda2 ni.
hari tu sekli my SV salah paham dengan saya.
penat la duk explain balik n everything untuk menjernihkan keadaan

sekarang lagi sekali plak jadi lagi
which kali ni sebab de 'org' yang salah dengar or xnak paham pe yang saya cakap
pastu pegi cakap laen dekat SV..*grrrr...!*
so right now,at the moments sume salah saya.
fine la..thanks la sangat2 sebab wat saya camni.

xpela.i'll just go with the flow.
kalo result dpat ntah pape,saya tukar je nanti.nasib la k 'org' tu kena repeat semula pasni..
pape pn,thx la sgat2 sebab tambah masalah saya...

ok lah..banyak keje lagi kena wat ni..
see ya..

p/s: xde broadband ni memang susah dapat peluang on9 cam dulu...

the end of semester break?

hari ni 8 september 2012..
pintu masuk UiTM shah alam jammed macam hape..=_=
merase la berjalan kaki masuk dalam kan..
sekarang kat lab.
still no result after 1 month n half wat FYP..
*themm yeww..*
tension jangan cakap la..malam tadi kul 9.30 baru balik dari lab.
pagi ni duk lab lagi..rasa nak giler dah..
especially bile semalam the only syringe for GC jatuh n pecah.
kaca kan..huurrmmm..

totally out of mood.
kolej xdaftar lagi.nak kena angkut barang2 sume lagi..
isnin pagi xde class tapi kena pegi lab nak wat report sal syringe...*sigh*

what a life...:'((

sudah ku bilang

hari ni kembali ke SA.as usual la kan..
hari tu beli tiket kat pekan.tapi dah danis datang amek semalam bawak ke kuantan.
so pagi tadi kul 10.40am dah gerak dari umah sebab serik bai kena tinggal bus.
sekali dah sampai kat bandar,jammed giler..!
damn..
mule2 rilek lagi sebab awal lagi kan.bus kul 11.30.
sekali puas abg ipar pusing jalan laen,still jammed x gerak..grrrr...
call kaunter bus mintak number driver.
cakap2 dengan pak cik tu pastu memang xsempat so pak cik tu suh tukar tiket ke KL je kul 12.30pm.
xpela.redha je dh.huhu..
so officially sudah kena tinggal dengan bus wat kali ke 3..T__T

bazir duit sungguh..
xpela.de rezeki laen nanti kan..insyaAllah..

eh2,nape dengan tajuk tu?
owh.luper.sebenarnye dari hari sabtu saya dah cakap2.hari isnin mesti my SV akan call saya.
sekali tengah hari tadi time tengah tunggu bus die call.
memang xdengar la kan so sorry ye 'mama'..
saya xrela angkat call 'mama' lagi.
esok pagi ye jumpe..=_=.. xikhlas

okla.mau rehatkan mental n fizikal.
kena get ready kan mental n fizikal tuk esok n hari2 seterusnya..zzzzzzzzzzz
eh..salah..hehe.bye2 n wassalam~~

movies review ke + nak balik raya~

esok dah nak balik kampung..
wah..ayat cam jauh jek kampung kan..:p
jauh la tu..4jam jugak..hehe
neway nak citer siang tadi saya kuar dengan kawan.
alih2 wat giler tengok 2 movies straight..hahaa
first time nih..
mule2 kitaorang beli tiket The Dark Knight Rises(TDKR).
pas je beli masa nak pusing masuk mall saya tunjuk2 banner citer2 laen.
sambil bebel2 cakap sal citer2 tu.
sebenarnya teringin nak tengok The Borne Legacy or The Expendables 2 sebab tengok trailer cam best
so pergi check antara 2 movie tu de kul berapa plak.
since amek the dark knight tu 11.30am pastu dekat 3 jam citer die,so terpakse check de x yang kul 2.30pm or 3pm.
tapi xde kalo de pun 4pm.memang x la kan..
tapi still xpuas hati duk la tanye2 orang kaunter tu sebab xde orang tunggu kat belakang.hehe
last2 The Expendables 2 ade 2D kul 2.30pm.trus jela grab..:p
yela citer baru kuar kan..

so overall saya sangat heppy sebab 2-2 citer tu best..!
yang TDKR tu fun sebab saya dah suker citer tu yang dulu kan.
plus die kena fikir2 sket kenapa wat gitu so saya suke cite ni..
yang TE 2 plak memang best giler..
sebab kan citer tu serious nak mam tapi dalam serious n ganas2 diorang tu,diorang akan wat lawak bengong2 sesama diorang.
its a good combination la.so xde la stress ke ape kan.plus sangat banyak actions dalam ni.
worth it la 15ringgit pun..:p

ok la.mau tido.esok nak balik kampung dah..ngeee..:D
selamat hari raya n mintak ampun maaf kalo de salah silap ye..
hati2 kepada semua dalam perjalanan pulang ke kampung..see ya..:)

p/s: tadi bukak ni.. sekali terkejut nampak pic tu..first time masuk top 18..esok saringan rasenye hilang dah kot pic tu..:p

picture

i find this picture to be awesome.

how many animals can you see here?

tetbe nak letak pic ni..hehe..
sebenarnya nak wish happy first year to us today..:)
IMY sweetheart..
anyway,kami dua2 xsihat rini.
saya: ulcer yang teruk sampai bengkak.so nak cakap susah,nak makan pun seksa..:(
him: demam rindu kot.. hehe..

semoga kami kekal bahagia sampai hujung nyawa n cepat2 sihat..aamiin3..

eh.study la jannah.final lagi berapa hari jek..huuu

hectic week

yeah..!
hectic weeks are back..!
eh..not week la.suppose to be semester..=_=

today(monday)-test food chem
wednesday- test OSHA
                 - Information for bunting
                 - lab report food chem
thursday- listening test mandarin
             - oral test mandarin
friday- trip to zoo negara..

lol.seem not that pack eh?
well,tomorrow morning wanna made the sensory evaluation.planned to start at 9am.
for 30 panelists (gonna have to find and grab anyone available at the moments),
then analyse the data.
its hedonic 9-scale points for 3 samples
which lead to ANOVA and if significant lead to turkey test..T__T

too much things in my head untill i became too slow digesting any information given..
poor me rite?=_=

hurm..wanna settle and print out the questionnaire..bye and good nite..#untungladapattidur..T_____T