criterias 2

continue from previous entry~~

the forth criterias that i want is.................
have permanent job/income per month
haha..i'm totally being materialistic..:p

the fifth
possessd own car..(even still pay monthly but its ok.as long as he has his own car.not family's car that can be taken away anytime)..hua3..

ok..
enough of this..
i'm creeping out now coz i wanna go back home today..weee..:D
waiting for cik ecah to pick me up..hehe..

till then,see ya later..:)

third week

its been ages i guess didn't post here
reasons:-
1. already start class n everything
2. nothing to say
3.so hard to get on9 lol..!!

y?coz now staying in college so the wifi is totally gonna make me crazy..huhu..

ok..above all i juz fine here.(hopefully)
plus i juz get dizzy learn back all those things i already thrown away long time ago.hahaha..serve me right~~lalala

now its time to sleep as my timetable for this sem totally not suitable n fun like part 5 since almost all start at 8.30 am especially on friday...!!waaa..:( dun like it so much lol..

ok2..gud nite everyone..:)
p/s:lately i missed him.y eh?sud i delete him from my memory again?how??

new sem,new spirit...aminnn

wishing this new semester will give me new spirit..
i wanna try my very best for each subject.no more like before..insyaAllah...

well..today my day went very smoothly..
i got the college easily n the best part we manage to reserve and put tiero n yat's name with us too..:)
thanks ya Allah for making my day so easy today..alhamdulillah..i'm so glad..

tomorrow will be settling my registeration in faculty.hope everything will goes well too..aminn..:)

*suddenly i was purposely open his fb.there you go..._ _ is a relationship with........
ok..at last u admit it to the world as i know u already brought her to ur family n everything.so i hope u will not waste her like u did to me..*sigh*
i hate when i miss u..wish u never exist in my life as i totally dun even remember u from the past.but then when u forced me to remembered u,i tried so hard till i can remember at least ur face back in those old times..i shouldn't tried to do that before..ohh..plz..sud i delete almost everything again?????

p/s:-my mood totally ruined..hmm..but i dun want to cry juz because of u again..never...!!!

i can't decide

making decision..its totally my big weaknesses...:(
i can't even make a very simple decision.
not for others not even for myself..!!silly me..!!

my bestie said:- dun think too much for something.juz do it..

hmm..sorry lalink i troubled u for the whole day.i keep adding others problem..haish..y i'm so useless??
when they need help,i never help them.not even make them smile back..at least a bit..

too much things in my head now..my brain totally exhausted now.can't think anything more..sorry beb..sorry lalink.sorry yunk..sorry everyone...:((

WGACA..remember that..!!

ok..
for the rest of my life,i never say the love words to someone i didn't love or mean it for REAL..
i only said them for REAL...
never ever to play with someone feelings coz i dun even have the heart to do that...

then,if i already love u for real n u are actually juz playing with my feeling,then here it comes the time for me to hate u..
if i love people for real,then i'll hate U for REAL too..!!
n thx for giving me such a concrete reason for me too hate u..thanks..!!
huh..

WGACA..!!i really wanna shout this at u coz its the karma of life..got it??
right now i really hate u coz i dun want to hate myself anymore..

p/s:-i tried so hard to forgive u coz u really break my heart again.plz lah..juz admit that she's ur gf ever coz u already bring her to meet ur family..huh..can't u be loyal hah???

alhamdulillah

alhamdulillah..thats all i can say right now..
i already accepted to continue my study in foodtech..
i'm so happy for a second
but then i am so sad for all my beloved frens..
most of them dun get the offer..
i really dun know what else to say to them.i know they are too disappointed for this moment but i can't do anything for them make me feel more useless.
ya Allah..plz dun test them like this..i need them to further my study.
i need them so much coz without them,i dun know how to survive there alone..gosshhh
ALONE??

i keep praying they will get the offer later.maybe after the system updating again after this..
its really weird for them not getting the offer as some of them got higher result from me in diploma.so what the exact thing make them rejected by Uitm??
ya Allah..i really hope they will get the offer too..
right now i can't feel happy at all coz i need my frens...
:(

p/s:-ohh..i have to on my hp coz i need to calm down my frens..huhu..i dun want to be selfish as so far that i know i'm on the very few list who got the offer..from 50++ students right now i only know about less than 10 get the offer..its totally insane..!!

saying goodbye

woot woot..hahaa
i'm getting crazy..peace..:D
well,to all my fren that read this blog n cntc me on fb,sorry coz i deactivate my account for a while till unknown time..
i'll only keep online with my invisible ym,myspace,frenster n my beloved blog only..peace..:D

its really hard decisions coz i love fb so much..waa..T_T
but then this is the best solution for the time being as i dun want to know anything bout him anymore..
well,it hurt me a lots when looking at his profile or reading his comment with others while he's ignoring n avoiding me..lol..

what ever it is,i'm going to be fine..yeah..!!
i will by hook or by crook..hahaa..sorry..getting out of my mind again..:p

ok2..now its time for me to be far away from my beloved fren for a while..dun worry my kembar 4,i'll be back soon..maybe too soon..hehe coz i'll miss each of u so much..!!
so right now its time for me to make myself busy with everything here..hohoo..thx a lots to bleach coz it keep my mind busy watching them till i forgot lots of things..:P

to beb,thx a lots for everything but maybe our ways of handling problems are different which make me a bit difficult to do things as u want.its not that i dun want to tell u everything about my feeling but i have trouble u alots already with everything.hehe..thx for those time n advices..:)

p/s:-getting nervous waiting for the continuation result..adoih..make me crazy..huhu...i pray each of us will get place to continue our study together..aminn..:)

stop.plz

ya Allah...what wrong with him nowadays??
i try to be +ve that u dun have crdt to reply my msgs.ok fine
i try to be +ve when u on9 n suddenly offline to me...ok..
its fifa world cup n u once told me u want to watch them..still be ok..
i thought u are so busy with the work till u dun hve time to talk to me..i still can accept it.
then..
i heard about ur schoolmates's accident which one of them passed away.
so i thought u r so sad u dun wan hve any mood to talk with anybody..
so i tried to understand n gve u some space...
but
when i read ur comments on those photos with others,u cn laugh n joking with others happily..
like nothing wrong with u..

so tell me.should i still think positive bout you??
i dun know what else to do or say right now.
i can't even tell anybody how i feel coz u prohibited me to tell anyone about us..
y??coz i'm juz ur 5th 'wives',itsn't it??
or maybe i have been thrown away from the list...*sigh*
it hard to pretend i'm fine n still happy with all these things..it really hard u know????

i really dun know how to get rid of these feelings..
:((
i hate myself for being like this..
but i dun know what to do..
hmmmm

*beb,i totally agree with u juz now but i really dun know what to do to forget him..so sorry beb for keep disappointing u...haishh....*

p/s:-all these things make me crazy~~looks like my heart getting weaker not stronger...silly me..!!