kemalasan tahap pe lah neyh??

owh gosh..its almost midnite already..

but i dun even finish any of my works...wuwuuu..

i dun know y i can't even think about the works now..adeh..tomorrow need to submit already..

erkk..do i need to stay all night long?

nooo....dun want..!!

so..

i better get get going..!!

gudnite everyone~~

p/s: all day long keep thinking,'sud i text u back?'

monday?

erk...its already monday..lots n lots of works totally not done yet..!!

study for the test also...=_=!

i feel like wanna abandoned everything now..haishh...

i hate myself right now.but can't help myself either..

i keep on watching movies n series..

ya..marathon after one another..so pathetic.

jannah,plz change for your own good plz...

*sigh*

i juz can't...:|

p/s; soledad..yup.addicted for more than 1 month already.everyone can guess when all its start~~

its sunday's nite

wallawehh...seronok x test sabtu mlm ahad?

seronokkkkk gileeerrrr...

wekks...wa dh la mmg lgsg xfokus pn stdy test neyh..heh..

u know y lah kn..

plus dgn FESMEL yg memekak2 dr pg smpi mlm kt bwh ni plus lg dgn karok t'bke kt DC plus lg ngan event pe ntah kt Mawar,sanggaattttt laa 'TENANG" wa nk stdy kt bilik menghadap sume nih kn...=_=!

ape2 je lah uitm ni.xhbs2 ngan event.tensi btul..

pastu dtg lg announcements duk suruh 'sume turun.ni kupon wajib.kalo x,xdpt kolej next sem'

wth la kn.event ko xrmi join nk ugut2 pule..wekkss..

sumpah annoying gilos..

rase nk pegi sepak sekor2 kt bwh tuh..haha..ya..in my dreams lah kn..:p

well,today sgt boring coz nk hfl sume kejadah dlm bku tu over n over lagi.n guess what i end up by fall asleep at my desk.then i juz moved to my lovely bed..wahaha..mmg sewel..:p

saat org laen struggle,sye tido jek xingt dunia..so test td jgn tye lh bab2 m'hfl tu kn.cnfrmla tibai last minutes coz xingt..!!hahaa..thats nice la kn..

since tgh ngadap buku pn my mind were somewhere else where i sudn't even think about.so i was like,blurghhh..dun want to think,so i better sleep..ngee..:D

ye2..itu lh reason knpe sye tido jek rini..

ok2..then planning nk pegi uptown mlm ni di cncel sbb...oh.sye xtau pape.tau2 dh cncel.so,ok sje lah since bkn nk wt ape pn kalo pegi..hehe..juz jln2..

then blik melati t'chenta neyh de Miss Universe bla3...

layan je lh kn since xde nk wat pape pn..

hmm..those gurl cntk2..ske tgk..de la sorg ni sgt cntk.bju sume cun dah..tapi sekali GEDDSS pule..haishh..nasib ko dpt num 2 jek bkn johan kn..haha..jahat pule..:p

n kwn2 t'syg ni de ke ckp

'eyh,bnde ni de lg x next sem?kte ltak name jan la..'

ewah3 syg2 ooii..xde mkne wa nk msuk bnde2 itu..dh la kne tnjk talent n then jwb soaln spontan kt ats tu kn..nehi3 lh..mati hdp semle wa xkn join..:D

ok lah.skrg mau tidur suda..movie dh lyn 1.series pn dh tgk 1 episod.sok nk wat report pule...

nite2...

p/s:- Freedy vs Jason.i juz watch them.n hey i watch it alone ok.in front of my lappy.xpercaye plak sye tgk cte hntu sorg2..:p

i just can't

i just can't..

if i could.

then i would...

got it?

zzzzzzzz..lots of things to study.losing all my focus..

tomorrow's test?hmm...gonna have to gain back myself.

i wish i can study well...no more thinking bout others...huh?

its juz a wish again~~

25th feb 2011

today is friday...!!i love friday because only got 1 class in the morning..:p

n i love today because i went to a picnic with my beloved classmates..:D

we enjoyed the domino's pizza,some soft drink n fruits also..

owh..after that they went to karaoke..

but i dun as i want to sleep badly..hahaa..got test on tomorrow's nite...

dun even start to make any note or revision lorh..

above all,i had fun with them...!!

next time we'll plan some other activity together2 again ok darlingss???:D

okeyh..sgt ske pic ni.tp ni lakonan semle.yg before2 tu real pye..

maen2 ngan diorg

okeyh.sume kelaparan tgu kami smpi..:p

mmg xde keje..:D

p/s: bkn xnk reply msg kamu..but for now,i better not to..

love addict

hmm..totally having such2 a bad time now..

overused my happiness for yesterday i guess..T_T

well this morning we brought our heavy bagpack with the lappy inside then only we knew,the lab postpone to next week..T_T

it already hurt my shoulder lah..huk3..

well..i dun know y that line totally told me that he's seeing someone already.but i tried so hard to denied it also.

but then i can't help myself at all.my instinct always right bout him lol..tsk3..:(

n then today i read a friend's blog..

love addict..

Love Addiction – The Characteristics
The following are some of the obvious traits of this addiction:

• Is unable to trust in relationships
• Has an inner rage over lack of nurturing in childhood
• Battles with depression
• Tolerates high-risk behavior
• Has other addictive or compulsive behaviors
• Questions values and life all the time
• Has a frantic personality
• Denies problems
• Confuses wants as needs
• Replaces ended relationships immediately

so the first criteria totally true..is it happening to me last month?i think,its true..

haishh..8 out of 10 is true coz it happened to me lorh..:((

i really hope i can be heal as fast as i can..

n about my instinct,if its true then i pray i can accept it with all my heart..i wish i really that strong at that moment..!!

how i wish..

life is cruel..as always~~

22th feb

i had dream again in the morning..n ya as always it had sad ending..ppffft..

but then as always i text him telling about the craps.

then ya i had a very good time sms-ing with him all day long.

i guess i over happy today..

till i actually forgot the pain.n i did made a mistake.again..*sigh*

then juz half n hour ago i read few things.

suddenly it hurt.

so much as i had a very bad feeling now..tsk3.

heart.plz stop hoping.the wound gonna bleed again.

n this time its the worsened ever.it gonna ripped me apart..

goshh..

happiness never meant to be mine..:|

i guess so..

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called “best friend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick” she said; he’s not going to go well, I didn’t have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as “best friends”. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes.I want her to be mine, but she isn’t think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said “I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, “you’re my best friend, thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say “I do” and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said “you came!”. She said “thanks” and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my “best friend”. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn’t notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love him but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too…` I thought to my self, and I cried.

-taken from note's in fb-