hate myself

i did it again..stupid me.
i'm the most stupid girl in the world again...
i really hate myself..really3...

ya Allah..y must u let me open my heart if it just to be broke again n again??
i really wanna cry.
to AM..i should know i'm juz ur fren.never more than that as u have too many girlfrens already..
great.then as i said i knew u have too many girlfren already but y do i stil believe in u??

tell me,if someone keep telling that he love u.miss u.wanna take u there n there..send regards to his mother in law(which refer to ur own mum),keep calling u with syg,say that he miss u n everything.again calling u his wife or what so ever....so what am i suppose to expect???
surely i expect he really mean it for real..
but then suddenly he said,i'm juz ur fren or besfren only..

i hate men for easily saying those things for no reason at all..y all man are the same??
playing around with my feelings..great..keep doing it men...when i dun believe u,u beg me to believe.then the moment i already believe u n already love u then only u said we r juz FRIEND..!!
great...
what a great games...!!thousand thanks men..!!

p/s:-u hurt me..thx for that.