dun play with the love word plz~~

for me right now love isn't a thing that we can play around on it anymore.
since already reach this age,for me when we say we love someone,u have to be very sure about it.
huh?think i'm too serious?
well..its not that i want to be like this.but since my age going to be 20th this year so i think its not wrong to think futher on the future.
i'm done with all those puppy love or what so ever
what i want right now is a real relationship.which will be maintained to the end of life.
which will never changes no matter what happen.
the one that never fade through times or distance
the one that never ever forgetten or regrets..!

hmmm..but till now i still didn't found it yet.
ok fine..i'm still too young actually but still i need to think bout my future..
unfortunately,my biggest weakness is i never failed to love someone back if they confess to me even before that i have no feeling at all..
but then..still i need a bit time.n normally its not going to be too long..(1-2weeks is not long right??)
but i dun know why the time i already love them,they already closed they heart by that time.
gosh...i dun know what else to do.

before this i might be find someone that i love.
but then i changed the principle.accept people who love us coz some saying said the one who love us is whole lots better compared to someone we loved but never love us back..
but still it don't work..T_T
hmm..*sigh*

so please3...to all men out there.
dun u ever dare to play with love words if u never meant it for real..!!
can't u only say it when u really2 love that girl n willing to go through everything with her??
plz..not for fun again..
i'm done with all those jokes already....plz lah..do understand..
i have feelings ok??not juz a doll or robot or stone...ish..hate my heart also.
can't u dun easily believe in those words jannah??
silly me..stupid me..
fine..so right now,only FRIENDSHIP allowed..huh...


p/s:-i feel a bit silly when he said he only love me as a fren coz he love all his fren..hmm..dun know what to say lah..if u really juz love me as a fren then y do u have to say that ILYSM before this??
ok.thinking +vely,maybe u said that coz i said he's too rush in everything n i'm not ready yet..i dun knowlah..i really can't understand any man anymore..T_T
need rest~~mentally