picture

i find this picture to be awesome.

how many animals can you see here?

tetbe nak letak pic ni..hehe..
sebenarnya nak wish happy first year to us today..:)
IMY sweetheart..
anyway,kami dua2 xsihat rini.
saya: ulcer yang teruk sampai bengkak.so nak cakap susah,nak makan pun seksa..:(
him: demam rindu kot.. hehe..

semoga kami kekal bahagia sampai hujung nyawa n cepat2 sihat..aamiin3..

eh.study la jannah.final lagi berapa hari jek..huuu

sweet moments

this represent me & you.

always sweetheart

represent myself

this sweetie stay with you always which represent me with you all da time sweetheart..

and also otherwise.

you with me all da time..:)

p/s: IMY already..i can't be apart from you lah sayang.huhu

Mr K's 22nd besday

actually dah lame sangat nak update tapi xsempat plak..
so besday die 29th april ritu.
kan malam sebelum tu saya dapat hamper.so saya bawak few makanan ringan tu ke rumah die.
mase pagi tu memang niat nak beli kek tuk die.
tapi bile kat bandar tetbe malas sebab park kereta jauh sket dari kedai kek.

pas kuar duit sume fikir2 balik,pegi jela beli kek tuk die.
pastu rambang mata nak pilih kek.
last2 beli je kek blueberry.padahal dah tau dah die kureng sket buah2 berry or masam2 ni..
tapi beli je la..

so sampai umah die,ummi n angah je de.die kuar g kedai jap.
so saya set up kek sume.angah wat air.
pastu die balik die masuk2 die pandang je kek tu tapi xcakap pape.
saya dah riso takut die xsuke ke kan.
then die letak barang die sume baru die datang senyum2 kat saya..
so wish besday n saya suh die tiup lilin..

happy birthday sayang..

muke happy dapat kek..:)

pastu potong2 kek n makan same2..nasib die xkisah kek tu blueberry.hehe..

tapi kan mase makan kek tu die cakap kat saya slow2..
him: thanks beli kan kek tuk saya..
me: welcome..*sambil senyum*
him: nak tau x.sepanjang 22 tahun ni,ni la first time saya dapat potong kek birthday saya..
me: haa??

trus rase sebak yang amat.ya Allah hai.nasib la saya rajinkan diri pegi jalan sket beli kek tu.kalo x,mesti saya sanggup pegi bandar balik n beli kek tuk die.syukur sangat xlayan perasaan malas ni.
bile nak wat entry ni baru perasan mate die merah n berair time saya amek pic ni.maybe die sebak kot..huhu..

owh.saya nakal pegi sapu krim kat muke die.so die balas balik.hehe..

tu je nak citer.sekarang ni saya sangat rindu kan die.hope kami tabah menghadapi dugaan yang mendatang...aamiin...:)

p/s: saje publish lambat sebab tetbe byk plak entry hari semalam..:p

IMY so much

ok.tajuk pun dah tau kan.

ye.tetbe rindu giler kat die nih.

tula.hari2 die duk tye:

bile balik sini?

adoih..xrase nak meraung ke?

terpakse ok.terpakse duk sini..T__T
exam tak habis lagi la sayang.

tapi....

pas habis exam pun tak dapat balik jumpa kamu lagi..

tsk3..

tak tahu lagi bile dapat jumpa dating dengan kamu la..:(

eh.ni bukan pic die tido and saya menggedik nak tangkap gambar.

tak3..

ni pic yang tak jadi sebab die tak tahan hp tuh kuar lampu flash lame sangat.

eh.sebenarnya tak de la lame.tapi hp tu lambat snap.so si dia ingat dah habis.tu yang jadi camni..

=_= apehal saya explain panjang lebar nih??

just nak cakap :

I MISS YOU SO MUCH SAYANG..

nanti de rezeki and panjang umur saya balik jumpa kamu k?jangan sedih2 tau..

*sape yang sedih sekarang pun xtau la..=_=*

neway,tu baju couple kami.dah de letak kan dulu2.kot la..haha.

ok lah.bye2.

baru bace 1 bab dari 8 bab.hebat tak?

padahal tinggal hari je lagi.esok dah exam.

erk..ESOK??!!

*pengsan*

are you? +6 months

Masa bercinta..kita tergila2 kat dia

Dah kawin kita sayang mengila dgn dia

Bila dia dah sakit..bela lah dia..

Jgn tinggalkan dia.

*taken from HERE*

randomly read blogs..err..nak wat entry melayu jela..mls nk pk2 ayt..

blog kt ats ni blog mama PEEJ..*ok3..mengade ltk link sbb nnt org google jmpe entry ni jgk..:p*

dulu sllu gak bce blog mama die time boring2..pastu lme dh tgl..then today bce blik..

seronok bce blog mak die.sbb mcm2 mkann de..hehe..

ehh3..lari topik plak..terbace post die yg kt atas tuh..suddenly rse sebak.

reason?

am i gonna meet a guy that will do all those things for me?i mean for my whole life..

i am praying that my syg is the guy..*ya3..i know.everytime i fall in love with someone i pray that he's the right one.over n over again*

but seriously,bce blog mak peej ni make me realize there is true love..

its true each time i saw an old couple still walking holding hand to hand, it make me touched.

i was hoping that i'll live long enough with my husband and do the same thing like that..hehe...*ok berangan lbh*

then teringat,before cuti ritu gdh dgn my syg..and i was selfishly say this sentence to him:

yes,i'll be waiting for your rombongan meminang.tp kalo mcm ni,xkan b kne tgu smpi umor 50thn kot??

jht kn sye..TT__TT

kalo time gdh mmg merapu lbh2..like my bestie said 'meracau'..:p

and i was lucky enough to still having him by my side in all situations.no matter how bad i treat him..

thx syg.thx a lots..

even time dating ritu sye meracau lg kt tgh org ramai tetbe nangis xtntu psal,still syg xtgl sye kt situ kn?:p *buruk gle perangai time tuh..sorry mnje*

after all,we already been together for 6 months..:)

ya for many people its just a short time,but for me its long enough n the best i ever had..hehe..

ya lorhh...for a guy yg panas baran cm die tp still sggp sbr lyn kerenah sye yg ntah pape tuk 6 bulan,itu dh ckup baek dh..

syg,will you be patient with me for our whole life?i hope the answer is YES and always will stay the  same...*wink*

actually byk lg nk citer.tp pic xtransfer lg.mls pn de..hehe..till next time kot..see yaa..:p

p/s: time xmenaip,byk je idea.time nk wat entry sume hlg.pastu jd la entry carca marba ni..*eyh.btol ke word ni?* ok la entry berterabur..hehe..

pictures..:)

my Mr K..:)

with shades that i choosed for him.hehe.. a day before eid adha.

us..a day before i went back to shah alam..

p/s: plz ignore my 'slenga' face.

he bought this for me..the heart become my necklace now...:)

 and this one too..:)

how can i not fall for him la..

ok.stop this mushy2 things jannah..:D

p/s: already missing him larh syg..

25th june..:)

hari ni byk bnde jd..:)

pg2 pegi shopping dgn my sis kt pekan sari..

haha..msti pelik sebab 'SARI' kn?

actually SEHARI..tp sbb sbut laju2 last2 jd sari jek..:p

ok.niat asl nk cr bju2 nk wat pkai g kerje.

last2 beli 1 t-shirt,1 inner,1 bju jln(k.ngah belanje),1 jeans,hand socks n 1 beg..

haaa...shopping btul neyh..hahaha..:p

pastu pegi ambek my en P..

rse cm xpercaye at last dpt gak..

hahaa..setelah bertahun-tahun tertangguh..huhu

pastu drive dr pusat memandu smpi kt petronas.

then tukar driver dh..hahaha..

tkut nk drive kt bndr..busy giler jln woo...*ok.penakut tu ckp jela*

pastu kan my bestie dh blik dr shalayue rini..!!:D

hehee..so happy kot even xdpt jmpe lg kn..

welcome home my bestie..:)

then3......

ntah nape rini jd sewel pegi accept 1 request giler dr sorg mamat kt tmpt kerje sye..

huhu..kn ritu ckp de org wat something kn..

mamat neyh la..

die mntk couple.

pada hal bru knal 2 minggu..=_=

seminggu knal die dh mntk couple..

adoih..pening kple bile die duk msj hr2 tye..

last2 rini wat kptsn giler g accept..hahahaha..!!

so officially sye suda ber'bf kembali..

xtau la yg neyh brp lme than plak kn..

haha..siyes xpercaye kt dr sndri pegi ckp YES td..

xpela..die pn ckp try je dlu..kui3..

rsenye nothing much kot ktorg..

giler jht.bru 1st day dh ckp cmtuh...:p

ye sye mmg jht.n die plak dak baek..

nasib awk la ye...heheh

nnt2 sye tgkp gmbr ngan die n upload kt sni..

nsb die xde fb..haha..bkn kaki on9 dak neyh..

so bleh la sye merepek2 kt blog n fb seske ht...HAHAHAHAH..*gelak jht*

ok dh2..nk solat..bye2.. n have nice days ahead everyone..!:)

fact

Love Cycle: Stranger -> Friend -> Best Friend -> Love -> Boyfriend -> Heartbreak -> Stranger.

damn its true..!

~totally copied from tweet~

one of my favourite lines..

start from the beginning??

gonna takes whole life i guess..=_=

i'm waiting

these past few days were my hard days..totally ok..
well after think about it all the night long until my brain totally exhausted.
n i almost get crazy last nite...(well,only peoples here know my condition last nite.sorry gurlz..)
until i can't pack my things coz my mind were somewhere else.
i loose my appetite..
till this moment.
i'm so tired...

so right now,i really want u to know.
its not that i dun trust u.u should always know i trust u since we're in school..
more than i trust others.
more than i trust myself...
but when u tell me about that,i was too shock with the fact.
its not that i can't accept it.
i can n i will dear.for you,im willing to accept everything.

maybe i dun know how to show how much i love u.
n ya i know it hard for me to praise u or anything..
but dun u know.i don't do that because i never do them for anyone..
n for u..seriously i never loved anyone else the way i love u.
i know it may be hard for u to see it but its true i love u so much.
BUT..
if u only can accept me as besfren,then i gonna have to accept it.
by hook or by crook.
coz i can't force u to love me..
so right now,i'm sorry coz i did say lots of wrong things to u.
for that,i'm deeply apologise to u..

i'll wait for ur answer.
in the mean time,plz do not switch off ur hp or your gtalk..
coz i'll keep being like before till u give me the answer..
n owh..i'm going back to my sister's house today.
so will be back here for a while tomorrow.
n gonna back to pahang on tuesday.

lalink,i'll texting u from time to time..its ok if u dun want to reply.
but plz3..do take care of urself well..
coz i dun want anything bad happen to u...

i'm out of my mind these past two days.so here,i would like to tell u that no matter what ur decision is,i'm gonna accept it.n as always,i'll always here for u.waiting for u n i promise we'll go through everything together.but as always,that is only u want me to be by side.if otherwise,i gonna have to understand it n of course with explaination..ok lalink?

p/s: u know what,i always love to hear ur explaination..always my lalink..:)

ti amo troppo..:)

wee...
seriously u're my everything lalink..:)

oh3..lack of idea to type here coz i'm so happy..
above all,thx a lots for the time..
n everything lalink..

well..
its totally weird but guess i'm getting used to it. coz i'll always say
ti amo troppo..:))

*ok stop.mari stdy..sye suda angau sama kamoo..:p haha..*

yes,i do..:D

:)) :)) :)

to my lalink...
thx 4 making me happy..:D

well..its juz being official last nite.
or didn't it count yet eh?:p
*kidding*

well..today i had a very bad test with stomachache..
i dun know how's the result will be..so juz let it be..

to my beb..
sorry for not telling u by call last nite..
i'll call u later k...

ok..now its time for class..
see ya another few more hours...:p

7th 0ct 2010....22.40++...:)
tq lalink..n sorry for being too sensitive...dun run from me..!!hahaha..

what should i do??

OMG....
i really dun know what to do now..:((
*sigh*
*sigh*

it really hard now..
above all..i juz want u to know i really2 dun wan to loose u in my life
coz u r my strength each time i fall.
u always there for me.
cheer me up.
help me in every single thing...
but...
there's things we need to clarify first..
hope u can understand it later..

n if only u can accept it,then i'll absolutely say yes without doubt at all...
but for this moment..i dun have that strength to tell u yet..
give me a lil bit time..
n i hope u won't leave me coz i'm dead without u.
like i told u too many times before.
i really can;t imagine life without u....

n if u can't accept it..all i'm begging u is,don't leave me....:((
i also can understand if u can't accept it coz i know u.
but plz.if u hate me,dun be too long....coz i always need u...always...

rainbow

rainbow is so beautiful..weee...
the 7layer colour really make me feel this world is so beautiful..
alhamdulillah with this Allah's creation i can remember Him back..
*already gone too far from the right path..huhu..*

well,this pic taken by me at the 10th floor of this building with my beloved 5320 so its totally can't show the real beauty i saw yesterday's evening..:)

hoho...suddenly i remember i have few crazy pic which i took before but i can't put in fb.so can i put them here??hehe..
i'm out of my mind again..:D



writing on my body again..:p

this one actually i can't post them..huhu..
know y?
see the njAm?
who know what is mean??
ok..nja=my full name..
but njAm=........
my name+ his name..huhu..
i almost change my name in fb into this actually but then i realize i can't do that coz he belongs to someone else...*sigh*

ok.enough bout him.everyday i can't stop thinking bout him but does he remember me at least for a minute in a day?i don't think so coz he dun even call me n dun reply to my msgs..hmm
i tried to be cruel to him but then it hurt me by doing so as i miss him so much..
ok fine..juz shoot me plz..!!

p/s:-my mood swing too fast now..sorry everyone...

L.O.V.E??

LOVE..hmm..this four letters really has messed me up so much..haish..

now the issue is LOYAL..
does u know what this 5 letters means??
does u know how to value them??
i bet u don't.
if u do u should have value her from the beginning..
u won't play around with my feeling like this..
yes recently u don't even call me dear or any other names like before.
but from the first place y did u make me believe that u love me??
yaa.then here it comes my stupidity by trusting u easily.
u know y i choose to believe u at the beginning?
coz i dun want to let u down.i dun know how to say no as i'm so afraid it will make u sad..
n now looks like it all my fault for loving u..
huh..stop asking me who's the guy coz u sud know its U...!!no one else for this moment.but still u act like u dun even make any mistakes at all...

urff..now i would like to tell u,it totally not worth it for me to stay loyal for u.
i know it my fault for still loving u after the truth reveal but this is me coz i only say it when i meant it for real.not like u..!!
i really wish u read this AM.coz i'm sick being a fool for u..do everything u ask me to do just to make sure u r fine n happy even i cried like hell here..but in the end it turns out to be my fault for those things i done for u..
thx 4 blaming me...thx a lots for using 'aku' in those msgs coz u r the one who change them into am,jan,sy n awk so dun blame me if i hate u change in into 'aku ko' in suddenly as i already want to change them before but u r the one who insist to use name...

urff...enough la for all u're doing..i had them enough..

p/s:-sorry coz all my entry totally about how i feel to his actions coz i dun know where else to let it go..:|

criterias~~

huh..i'm getting bored with all ur doing lah..so bored..so right now,i'm transforming into a cruel girl..yep..a very2 cruel girl ever~~(heh..in fact i juz want to make my heart stronger..:p)

well before this i dun really matter about all of these things but right now,i'll make it the guidelines...

ok..so for this entry i would like to put the criterias for a man that wanna be my next lover..if lack one,u r totally REJECTED....!!

1. EXTREMELY HANDSOME
y?coz i'm bored with all those people already.all this while i never care about look n appearance.but this time,i will absolutely make this the barrier..huhh..
n how i described handsome guy?? sorry.all this life time i only said 2 guys are handsome coz i rarely said it..

2. RICH
hah..i already become a materialistic girl juz like many other girls..so what??before this i dun even care about this too but now,no more...u have to be a really rich guy so that if i ask anything u can fulfill them immediately..:D

3. INTELLIGENT
y?coz i'm bored with all those guy which actually make me feel silly before..
at least if u r intelligent,then it can promise me a great life in future right??

4. HMMMM
still in process..but i'll add this criteria later on.i will...!!

huh..dun blame me.blame THEM for breaking my heart again n again before this..i had it enough.i trust people easily so that others will do the same for me..i love others without doubt but in the end they choose other girl..before this i am juz a simple girl but right now,NO MORE...!!
this jannah has completely changed..n again.dun blame me,blame THEM for turning me into this person..!!

exhausted

for this past 5 months in year 2010 i have been totally crazy..
huh..never expected to be fool twice in such a very short time.
i know people will say i crazy or anything
but i can't help it to happen..
yes my heart has been too fragile recently
but

i can't denied it anymore...
i miss him..everyday i want to talk with him.
no not everyday..almost every hour actually..
i missed to laugh happily with him n listen to all those words..
what words??love words....
everytime i heard them,i am so happy..
but then i stood up for a while.
its not true.
its just a lie from him..hmmm...

but still i can't help myself to pick up every single call from him.
if i missed one,i was terribly sorry for him.
then chatting..
we chat happily n there it goes he took my heart away again..
haishhh...y u did that dear??
the only thing i can't understand bout u,y do all those things??
y u make me feel too special and then u said its nothing coz i'm just ur fren.not more than that..
i keep asking u last nite y do this to me..
but the answer i got still the same..
u dun know y n i'm ur fren.....
*sigh*

today i tried to be more natural to u.no more special words for u n no more special words from u too..
i tried to say the word 'aku' n 'ko' but i can't..
instead i still use 'sy','awk',jannah n am with u...*sigh*

beb,i need to be stronger but plz dun raise ur voice with me..huhu..u make me scared by doing that.i know u have done all the things u can do for me to make me happy n sorry coz still i missed him a lots..so sorry beb

end of story plz...dun want to think too much about u coz it only tear my heart apart again n again...
n did u know each time i listened to that 'yang terindah' song,my heart cried so much..y did u sing that song to me if u never mean it for me???
totally can't understand u AM...hopefully u dun do that anymore after this coz i dun think my heart can take it anymore tests from u..

p/s:-y i can't even feel mad at u eh?even u ask me to scold u for doing that to me but still i can't scold u..all i can say to u,its not ur fault...silly me..!!that yang terindah song keep ringing in my head for the whole day..y u sing it for me???urff....

dun play with the love word plz~~

for me right now love isn't a thing that we can play around on it anymore.
since already reach this age,for me when we say we love someone,u have to be very sure about it.
huh?think i'm too serious?
well..its not that i want to be like this.but since my age going to be 20th this year so i think its not wrong to think futher on the future.
i'm done with all those puppy love or what so ever
what i want right now is a real relationship.which will be maintained to the end of life.
which will never changes no matter what happen.
the one that never fade through times or distance
the one that never ever forgetten or regrets..!

hmmm..but till now i still didn't found it yet.
ok fine..i'm still too young actually but still i need to think bout my future..
unfortunately,my biggest weakness is i never failed to love someone back if they confess to me even before that i have no feeling at all..
but then..still i need a bit time.n normally its not going to be too long..(1-2weeks is not long right??)
but i dun know why the time i already love them,they already closed they heart by that time.
gosh...i dun know what else to do.

before this i might be find someone that i love.
but then i changed the principle.accept people who love us coz some saying said the one who love us is whole lots better compared to someone we loved but never love us back..
but still it don't work..T_T
hmm..*sigh*

so please3...to all men out there.
dun u ever dare to play with love words if u never meant it for real..!!
can't u only say it when u really2 love that girl n willing to go through everything with her??
plz..not for fun again..
i'm done with all those jokes already....plz lah..do understand..
i have feelings ok??not juz a doll or robot or stone...ish..hate my heart also.
can't u dun easily believe in those words jannah??
silly me..stupid me..
fine..so right now,only FRIENDSHIP allowed..huh...


p/s:-i feel a bit silly when he said he only love me as a fren coz he love all his fren..hmm..dun know what to say lah..if u really juz love me as a fren then y do u have to say that ILYSM before this??
ok.thinking +vely,maybe u said that coz i said he's too rush in everything n i'm not ready yet..i dun knowlah..i really can't understand any man anymore..T_T
need rest~~mentally

counting the moments..fuhhh

oh dear..i'm so nervous waiting for the call..
haishh..crazy me lah for the moments..keep counting the moments for ur call..
aaaa....i'm so afraid..

luckily u can't make any call yesterday.if not,i'm totally dead already..
huu..i juz pray u'll be safe on the sea..huh???sea??
yup..that guy is in the ship on the sea..(oh..sgt tkut ble di fkrkn.worried)

erk..worried??y??
hmm..see..its not that difficult for me like someone.but i'm so afraid to be fooled again..
i thought i dun wan to have any long distance relationship anymore coz i'm done being fool like before...
but if i choose this guy,its going to be whole lots of loooonnngg distance relationship forever..!!huuu..
right now he's still studying so its going to be only 3-4 months on the sea.
so when he work,it must be more that 6months he's there..!!
so??? can i bear about it??
no contact for few days.perhaps weeks..!!gosh...
too much things in my head now..can't decide anything yet...T_T

oh3..heart,plz tell me what to do??
(sy dh la amt manja n cpt risau kalo xdpt cntc 1 hr pn..now its going to be weeks???)
gosh...!!
my head spinning around thinking bout this..hmm..
whatever,i'm still waiting for the call..(oh mase,cpt lah..)
i can't take it anymore..err..no3...i dun have any scripts to tell yet..
so right now,let do the script first..!!chaiyuk2 for myself..


p/s:-today is 'his' besday.so happy besday lah ek.n gud luck for ur paper too..

gonna faint..!!

oh goshh..!!
what am i suppose to do now??
am i ready for this at the moment??
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..........!!!
really dun know what to do...huk3...

u drive me crazy..totally..!!

hmm...know y i become like this?
its all due to this 1 guy.
someone who suddenly come back in my life n suddenly say that he love me..!!
oh goshhh..
it so sudden..i thought he's juz playing around.
but3....
he already claimed me as his wife to his fren..!!ok..thats fine for joke only.
but when he said he miss me n love me over n over again,i totally speechless..
really dun know what to do..
seriously i'm gonna faint.everytime u call,my heart was like pulled out from my chest..!
gosshhh....this guy totally make me crazy..

its not that i dun like u.ok.honestly i already start to like u..
i repeat.LIKE..
for this moment its not LOVE yet..
y?itsn't this is what i'm want before??
yes..i know i really want to be love again.but totally didn't expect it so fast at this moment..!!
waaaaaa....dun know what to do.
my heart still doubt it coz it just recovering from the cuts before..
i'm so afraid...i'm so afraid..for reall..!!

AM I READY FOR THIS AT THIS MOMENTS????

*sigh*
it is just another test or it is another luck or 'rahmat' for me??
i really dun know...
to am,if only u read this i know it will hurt u a lots..
but..as i said last nite,i dun deserved a good guy like u....:(
coz i'm a bad girl after all..

to beb,sorry coz keep making u worried due to this...seriously i dun know what to do...


p/s:-y i LOVE always make me crazy??ya Allah..plz tell me what to do???
should i accept him or just say no?but,i really dun want to disappointed him as i know how bad it hurt...

y?

why do people always like doing silly things?
you don't want to admit that you were left behind
so deliberately touch that wound
you are not satisfied until you are full with scars..
you're just asking for it...

taken from my lucky star..totally right..:)
think of it..