proposal+result

last monday i went to shah alam.

regarding to my proposal for FYP.

stayed 1 night at syana's house.

went to i-city(at last..!)

 oh..got idea on my FYP.

but still have to study about it.hurmm..

and yesterday got my result.

as expected

i'm totally frustrated.

and now i have to go back to pekan.

got to take back my notes...*sigh*

lots of things in my mind.

i hope i can manage them

hopefully..

i'm gaining my strength.

hopefully no more tests.

my hands are already full.

i can't take anything more.

ya Allah,please help me to go through all of this..

changes

things have changed.

peoples around have changed.

i've changed too..a bit.

but why are you still wanna be the same?

wake up guy.

i may not forgive u yet.

but why do you still wanna repeat the same mistake?

i know you will never read this.

but i just don't care.

i'm not a liar.

so yes i'm missing you so much.

i waited for your text each day.

but not all the time.

even i only replied : ok.

but you'll never knew how much i missed your text.

most importantly,IMY..

but i still got manner and sensed.

you're not mine anymore the moment you chose her,

everything between us already torned apart.

it hard to say good bye.

but i had to..

Good bye my Mr K.

i'll never forget you.but the memories between us i just can't bear it on my minds.

i'm gonna ripped them off my records from time to time.

and for that,please give me time.

i gave you chances to be happy with her.

so please give me chances to be alive.

good bye

7 months

and nothing more.

i stop fighting when its not even worth it anymore..

may Allah still bless me with HIS love and give me strength again..

keep smiling..:)

sakit pinggang

today hari yang sangat2 penat.

petang tadi exam last tuk sem ni..Instrumental Analysis.

hurm.honestly tak leh wat.

banyak sangat2 blank.

just harap lulus.

sem ni saya tak mintak banyak.lulus je.

then balik rehat2 jap,start kemas barang sket2.

sekali akak cakap nak amek pas maghrib esok.

adoih..kene setel sume malam ni la.tapi mood tarak.

then kul 12++ kami prank kak shida for her birthday.

happy birthday 24th dear...!!:)

prank punye prank,letih lari2 and everything.

oh.lupe.kami prank hatna jugak sebab besday die time cuti nanti.

tapi die langsung tak tau kitaorang nak kenakan die sekali.

memang die blur la tadi..

then nak kenakan kak sue plak.

even besday die dah lepas 5hb ritu.tapi kami langsung tak wat pape.

so tadi nak kenakan die sekali.

tup3 die perasan terus lari jauh2.

kitaorang tak puas hati automatik plan nak kenakan as.

besday die pun time cuti nanti.

so die langsung tak expect die akan kena.siap terdiam time kena baling tepung and telur..

kui3...tepung and telur makan diri sendiri..:p

as tukang beli tadi.tu yang die blur die kena..

lastly lepas lari dari as then kena ambush jugak dengan die,kitaorang dapat jugak kak sue.

hoho..memang banyak tepung die kena tadi..

eh.tajuk laen.haa..pas prank sume lepak2 hilang kan penat then kemas barang..

wallaweh..banyak giler barang.rase nak nangis tak tau camne nak angkut nanti

TTT__________TTT

siyes sekarang pinggang macam nak patah.belum lagi angkut pergi bawah and angkut naek umah sya yang kat tingkat 3 tuh..!!!

waaaa...need help..T__T

tak de jejaka2 yang baek hati dah wujud kat dunie ni?

ok.ayat memang nak mintak pelempang.

ok lah.mau tido.sangat letih.kul 9 or 10 nak angkat barang plak..

last paper for degree sem 5

tomorrow is the day.last paper for this semester.

ehh..not tomorrow la.today...!

wuuhuu..can't wait for it.

syg,i can't wait to meet with u.i have surprise for you deary..!!

*mcm budak sekolah.kureng asam punye angah.=_= tapi tak pe.kami awet muda..hua3..*

countings days..:)

p/s: lots more to go before that..chaiyuk2 jannah..!!

senyum balik..:)

sape bace entry before ni mesti akan rase nak tumbuk2 je saye kan?

sorry...:p

tapi betul la tadi sangat2 sedih and emo.the whole day kot.

dengan exam sume hancuss lebur.

rase nak nangis tapi coolkan hati.

sekali internet sewel die block blogspot..

tensen bertambah2.

pastu website laen pun sume kena blue coat sume tu la..

TT__TT

then post kt fb sal tuh.tetbe akak saye komen.

adoih..bale ni.kul 4 pagi dah la.

tetbe lagi sorg akak ipar komen plak..adoih...!!

bertambah bale.

terus tak nak reply.

then akak hantar mesej kat fb:

lewat adik tido..exam mcm mne?

waaaaa...terus rase nak mati.

terus rase nak terjun bangunan bagai...:'((

seriously exam sem ni sangat teruk.tapi bile family saye yang tanye,rase bersalah sangat2 sebab saye menghampakan diorang...:(

terus nangis.tak tau nak jawab ape kat akak.

then reply ni:

exam teruk.jangan tye..:(

pastu sambung nangis sorang2..pathetic giler rase diri ini..

then cool down semua..try bace2 notes jap.

then try bukak blog balik.bukak blog peej

baca entry die sal die pun sume xkena hari ni.sampai la die dapat call tu.

sekali shaheizy sam wehh..!!

terus excited bace dialog die balik.siap imagine nada and suare sam lagik..:D

terus senyum sorang2..

kuang3..giler xsenonoh perangai..tadi nangis sampai bengkak2 mate.

sekali baca blog tu je terus happy.

*macam diri sendri plak dapat cakap dengan sam..hahaa*

:P

xdela excited ape tapi cam bersyukur la benda simple pun dah wat saye senyum semula..:)

thanks ya Allah..

none can replace it

actually this entry supposed to be typed and post yesterday.but since i got paper this evening,so i only do it now.

this is totally a regretful entry.so please don't read if you can't understand what i'm dealing at the moments.

ermm.while i studied this morning (5am),

i realized 1 thing...

well, i might forgot to tell that i lose my memory card.

which contains hundred of pictures.(could be more than that)

that was on few weeks back.

so i just ignore it since i got almost all those picture in my laptop.

even few were not here anymore.

but this morning i realized i lose the only 1 picture i had with someone.

i mean the only picture of me and her.

i know some might say,it just a picture.

but,tell me if that the only picture of you and your late mum,what would you do??

yes.that the only picture we had together.

i still can remember the night i took it with her.

it was few years back when my brother gave her that hp.

i asked her to try the camera together.

so i just snap it once at that time.

she was very hard to take picture with anyone.unless you forced her to do it.

that picture i never post anywhere as she doesn't wear scarf at that time.

i only made it as her contact photo.

but the day she passed away,i remove it because my brother in law called me using her number that day.

i can't stare at the picture so i just removed it.

then i totally forgot about it.

forgot to copy it to my laptop.

forgot to copy it to my new memory card.

so it just gone.

i checked back all my pictures in my laptop.

each folder.row by row.picture by picture.

but there no more that picture.

:'(

i had thousand more pictures but none can ever replace that one picture.

EVER.

well, i supposed today was my  worst day.

after realizing about the picture,i can't study anymore.

plus few minutes before i realized it,i saw few pictures of someone in FB.

he's celebrating his bestfriend's besday.

no.i'm not jealous.not because of that.but it hurt me as i thought he's not in malaysia.

i thought he fly to UK to meet his brother.

infact,he's just here.in SA..!

he promised me to come and meet me.but its already new year bro.but don't even tried to contact me.

not even in FB..i guess you just forgot about me and your promises.

*sigh*

today i really can't control myself.i ditched here and there.

i even dropped my iron till it broke.

my bag scratched as i lean on the wall.

i almost fall while walking in the exam hall.

and yes.i can't even answered my exam paper.

literally.i can't.

i thought my past papers should be the worst.but i'm mistaken.

today is my disaster day.

*sigh*

i'm sorry for typing this entry.

sorry to anyone who read this.

and sorry for not being a strong girl at all..

:'(

p/s: should i cry again?i need someone now..

bapak and anak.eh??

tensen baca notes QA.

teringat pic ni.

macam bapak and anak kan?

eh...

x3..abang and adik jek..:p

*jaga hati si dia.hehe*